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This whole ordeal, school....It's insane.
I opted to ask to change into a boarding student this next term coming after winter break.
Why bother being home? I wake up outrageously early every friggin morning. I never got the whole deal, of being on campus and everything. I mean, if I was still living in Concord, that would probably be another story. I'd just pull a Louisa, and be able to see people every once in a while. Seriously, I haven't seen ANY of my friends in the past month. And I live 20 minutes away. That'd be the plan if any of them actually saw me, but no. I'm out of the loop at school, and back yonder. I at least want to fit SOMEWHERE. If that means enduring cerfew and such, then I will. I refuse to take a lose-lose situation. The concordians have forgotten about me, which is ok. I wouldn't want them to be all "oh NO Katy's gooooone!" or anything. That'd be stoopi.
Even so, I want to go back to CCHS for my senior year. I want to graduate with my friends. While Justine may cry, and Ian may...well...he might laugh, I think it'd better. You don't know how many people think that I'm a freshman, coz I hang out with them so much. It's disconcerting, seeing that I'll be having my 17th birthday soon, and people can accept the false idea that I could be 13 or 14. Ouch, I know.
I think that this may be a bit too much pondering than would be appropriate, but it's all I have to do at this point. People aren't around back in the WC. I'm being anti-social at school. It's decintigrating a bit, but not for long. It will rebuild. I just need to take in all that I learn from this crap-ass time that I'm having at the moment. Learning is key. If you don't learn from your experiences, you're doomed. Seriously.
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Yesterday
All my troubles seemed so far away
Now it looks as though they're here to stay
Oh I believe
In yesterday
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I love you. A lot.
I opted to ask to change into a boarding student this next term coming after winter break.
Why bother being home? I wake up outrageously early every friggin morning. I never got the whole deal, of being on campus and everything. I mean, if I was still living in Concord, that would probably be another story. I'd just pull a Louisa, and be able to see people every once in a while. Seriously, I haven't seen ANY of my friends in the past month. And I live 20 minutes away. That'd be the plan if any of them actually saw me, but no. I'm out of the loop at school, and back yonder. I at least want to fit SOMEWHERE. If that means enduring cerfew and such, then I will. I refuse to take a lose-lose situation. The concordians have forgotten about me, which is ok. I wouldn't want them to be all "oh NO Katy's gooooone!" or anything. That'd be stoopi.
Even so, I want to go back to CCHS for my senior year. I want to graduate with my friends. While Justine may cry, and Ian may...well...he might laugh, I think it'd better. You don't know how many people think that I'm a freshman, coz I hang out with them so much. It's disconcerting, seeing that I'll be having my 17th birthday soon, and people can accept the false idea that I could be 13 or 14. Ouch, I know.
I think that this may be a bit too much pondering than would be appropriate, but it's all I have to do at this point. People aren't around back in the WC. I'm being anti-social at school. It's decintigrating a bit, but not for long. It will rebuild. I just need to take in all that I learn from this crap-ass time that I'm having at the moment. Learning is key. If you don't learn from your experiences, you're doomed. Seriously.
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Yesterday
All my troubles seemed so far away
Now it looks as though they're here to stay
Oh I believe
In yesterday
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I love you. A lot.