Prom and thoughts. Pure thoughts.
My first prom. Second dance of this year. I danced. Ok I danced with mostly girls.unlike jcl I danced withsome guys. Some being mike an Nick. Now I'm so not innocent but not a dancer like trends have gone. But I did. Only once. With mike. I'm Luke oh shit. Because I never do that. And lol. And Nick. We danced to Miley cyrus. So. Haha. And he sang along. So basically Nancy. And mike was my dances. Others were Ashley and or group of girls. The thing Is I was kinda free yet not. Because would I dance like that for my year? Of course not. Because they. Arnt. My. Cup. Of. Tea. Yeap. So those are kinda my thoughts. Sometimes I want people to ask me questions. Like ask about me you know. Even tho I nay say I'm ok I might not be. I mean. Wth. And idk who are bffs. People who care for me as much as I care about then. Except maybe 조씨. He told me to just live life and don't worry. Lol. Don't worry about boys. Don't worry about friends so much just keep the ones now. I know he's right. But I can't get thoughts out. 오빠. Ahh such a small word. He's a good one tho. So he knows everything except this yet. Arivu. Would be a good one.but idk. I guess i don't talk to him enough or I feel like. Like him there are a lot of ppl I wanna keep as friends. But sometimes I feel as if I'm too annoying. Or I don't talk to then enough. Like I want good friends to keep. Not just for a year or two then fade or fall. Idk. 나 어떡해요?????? It's funny cause sometimes I feel as if my kind is set on boys[ p.s I finnnalllly got a hug from will. Haha.] buy my heart isn't. You know. After Danny. Haha. 나 어떡해요.?!?! I want someone to help me. In life and school. I may be a social butterfly. But I want to keep some people I talk to. I want to. Not be overlooked. Yeah. I can be in a crowd yet feel lonely. Or just someone to lean on. 오 빠 is great but not in same state. Hardly sees me. I want to have real person to lean on. Not that joshi isn't real. He's just. Far. Lol. You know lol doesn't really mean anything to ne. It's just an emotion filler. Ppl tell me things I smile and laugh. It may not be real. They I'm me things and I say lol. It's not funny. At all. Not to me. Maybe not at the time.but I say lol. Continue being ehappy. And happy. Cause that's me. I hardly get really mad. If I do. I need ppl more than ever. But I just float around. Ahh. 바보. 笨蛋。fool. Me.