Portability
I am about to leave for spring break.
I am heading 3 hours south to a place that I feel safe in. Because the familiarity of the streets, directions, places, and people always comfort me.
Not to say that I don’t feel safe here, but I don't sleep as well as I feel that I should. And there are to many distractions sometimes.
My roommate moved out. I may come back to a new one. I left her a note.
My tummy is jumpy with excitement and fluttering.
Its been feeling like this for a few days now.
Aaron is leaving for Italy on Sunday. I am going to miss him. We took pictures and went to a couple of parties last nite. One was filled with people that I didn't know. The other many of them I had met before. I even went to high school with one of the hostesses, Alice, whom I've always adored. Ink form the long past days of Teen Theater was there.
She didn't say hi.
I think she still feels bad about the whole thing with John.
But its to long to speak of now. And not that it really matters that much.
And I still remember the hug he gave me. At my last community show. A hug that said more than he could veer bring himself to say.
It was a hug filled with regret and apologies.
And I was stronger then.
I am a lot weaker now.
And there's a part of me that says that I shouldn't have hope.
The majority of the time I don't.
But this time I might have enough to get me through.
I am heading 3 hours south to a place that I feel safe in. Because the familiarity of the streets, directions, places, and people always comfort me.
Not to say that I don’t feel safe here, but I don't sleep as well as I feel that I should. And there are to many distractions sometimes.
My roommate moved out. I may come back to a new one. I left her a note.
My tummy is jumpy with excitement and fluttering.
Its been feeling like this for a few days now.
Aaron is leaving for Italy on Sunday. I am going to miss him. We took pictures and went to a couple of parties last nite. One was filled with people that I didn't know. The other many of them I had met before. I even went to high school with one of the hostesses, Alice, whom I've always adored. Ink form the long past days of Teen Theater was there.
She didn't say hi.
I think she still feels bad about the whole thing with John.
But its to long to speak of now. And not that it really matters that much.
And I still remember the hug he gave me. At my last community show. A hug that said more than he could veer bring himself to say.
It was a hug filled with regret and apologies.
And I was stronger then.
I am a lot weaker now.
And there's a part of me that says that I shouldn't have hope.
The majority of the time I don't.
But this time I might have enough to get me through.