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I always climb up this hill of motivation and desire to progress and grow and self actualize and such then fall on my ass and slide back down the hill into a disgusting pile of self-loathing apathy that results in attention-crying Livejournals as such.
I started taking tables today at work but Gianina kept butting in and stepping in when unnecessary then she took all the tip money that I made her. I will be on my own tomorrow, the busiest night of the week. I wish school would start tomorrow so I'd feel like I had something worth getting up for (yes, that was said to invoke tears of sympathy).
I'm looking forward to lifeguarding saturday, I used to always bitch about hating lifeguarding, but so far I enjoy it as a means of making money a lot more than being in an environment where I'm constantly uncomfortable and anxious. If if I didn't need a source of income, I think I'd be regretting taking this job, I went about it so impulsively. I need to grow up.
Was this post a neurotic cry for attention or an honest expression? I seriously can not tell at all, I hate that.
I started taking tables today at work but Gianina kept butting in and stepping in when unnecessary then she took all the tip money that I made her. I will be on my own tomorrow, the busiest night of the week. I wish school would start tomorrow so I'd feel like I had something worth getting up for (yes, that was said to invoke tears of sympathy).
I'm looking forward to lifeguarding saturday, I used to always bitch about hating lifeguarding, but so far I enjoy it as a means of making money a lot more than being in an environment where I'm constantly uncomfortable and anxious. If if I didn't need a source of income, I think I'd be regretting taking this job, I went about it so impulsively. I need to grow up.
Was this post a neurotic cry for attention or an honest expression? I seriously can not tell at all, I hate that.