Serious dramatization
I cant handle the fact that I'm regretting all of these decisions. I cant believe what I have done to myself, and that has no weight on what Ive done to the others involved.
Its fucking amazing how well I hide it from everyone though. Ive become so great at it that I dont even realize when Im doing it, and the few times that I do its really terribly hard to stop.
I feel so fake sometimes that Im not even here. I lose consciousness into my thoughts of old times so intensely that I honestly feel numb.
I just wish that I didnt have to fuck shit up. I didnt need to be alone during my transition era. It didnt fucking make ANYTHING better.
Im not fucking happy, and Im finally able to admit it.
I love everyone though. I still love everyone after all this shit. I just need to actually LOVE someone right now.
Its fucking amazing how well I hide it from everyone though. Ive become so great at it that I dont even realize when Im doing it, and the few times that I do its really terribly hard to stop.
I feel so fake sometimes that Im not even here. I lose consciousness into my thoughts of old times so intensely that I honestly feel numb.
I just wish that I didnt have to fuck shit up. I didnt need to be alone during my transition era. It didnt fucking make ANYTHING better.
Im not fucking happy, and Im finally able to admit it.
I love everyone though. I still love everyone after all this shit. I just need to actually LOVE someone right now.