[Locked from Wuya (but she can hack it if she wants...)]

[unity_of_will]

Cast a calming apple

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[kicktothebeat]

Awesome song.

[unity_of_will]

Yeah.

[kicktothebeat]

What brought it on, though? Not a song for a good mood.

[unity_of_will]

No, it isn't.

Wuya.

[kicktothebeat]

Huh.

Did you kick her out, or something?

[unity_of_will]

No. I was annoyed with her, said something I really shouldnt've said. She got upset and left.

Never was good at dealing with emotions. I don't even know how to feel about her, much less how to explain it to her. Dammit.

[kicktothebeat]

Emotions are hard, but they're good for you. Same thing with people.

[unity_of_will]

It feels like years since I've dealt with either. Living with robots makes you distant. Looking the way I do makes human interaction almost nonexistent.

I want to make her understand this. I was bad at it to begin with, might as well say I have none now. But it's too hard, living with her without knowing.

[kicktothebeat]

I dunno. I'm not great at people either. But wouldn't it work best just t'tell her flat out, kinda thing?

[unity_of_will]

Oh, and tell her what? "Wuya, I'm attracted to you, but I'm so paralyzed with feelings of guilt and the thought of betraying my dead wife, not to mention having lost all knowledge of how to interact with a woman properly, that I'd be totally incapable of being a good boyfriend to you"?

Christ, might as well tell her to move out.

[kicktothebeat]

And not telling her is so much better?

[unity_of_will]

...It's hard. I don't want to hurt her.

[kicktothebeat]

Yeah, but...when you're not honest with people, that ends up hurting'em too, sooner or later.

[unity_of_will]

I hoped she would understand.

...I have to find her.

[kicktothebeat]

She off somewhere in Manhattan?

[unity_of_will]

I assume so.