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I'm trying soooo hard to keep Jackie & Mike happy, but they constantly walk all over me. Just today, at around 1 or so... after I had to sit throught their moaning during their 2 hour sex.... they kicked my ass b/c I wanted the computer. I woke up at NINE AM to use the computer b/c if I tried to use it while Mike was up.. yeah, never ganna happen. I played til they got up, told them they were loud and they bitched @ me. It's NOT something I can help. Jackie wanted ME to make lunch... Mike's fav.: pigs in a blanket.
1.) He complained b/c it's not how he "likes it".
2.) He closed EVERY window on the comp I had up AND signed off my AIM AFTER I asked him NOT to!
After we ate, Jackie wanted Mike to go w/ her to sell some computer stuff to an older man.. she felt uncomfortable going by herself. He said "No". I said.. Why doesn't HE GO? She said b/c he didn't "want to". I told him that I wanted the comp and they started yelling @ me and told me I couldn't do anything about it. It's not JUST the computer incident... it's EVERYTHING!!!
She's my sister and it hurts so bad putting up with the way she treats me. After I yelled back at them.. she pushed me into the door leading to the patio. She really scared me.. I hit my head, pushed her off me and told her to chill out. I can't hit her back... I just can't. We've BOTH been through so much abuse, that... I just couldn't hurt her. Mike walked up to me, and I told him if he so much as TOUCHED me ... I was calling the cops and charging him with assult and batttery. They really scared me today. She tried to push me over the 2nd. story balcony. I don't know... I'm just sooo ready to get out of here.
I'm depressed, upset, scared... I just don't need this. It's one thing after another. Too much for me to handle. I'm not emotionally stable enough for this. really!!! I'm doing everything I can to keep her happy enough to not get violent... but it's always the same. I cried for about 5-6 hours today.. what's wrong with me???? I'm so sick and tired of them using me the way they do. I'm always getting yelled @ by them b/c I don't cook the way they want or watch the TV shows they want to watch. My mom's home... I should go... Love you all.. Thanks for your ear Bobbie.. I really needed it!
1.) He complained b/c it's not how he "likes it".
2.) He closed EVERY window on the comp I had up AND signed off my AIM AFTER I asked him NOT to!
After we ate, Jackie wanted Mike to go w/ her to sell some computer stuff to an older man.. she felt uncomfortable going by herself. He said "No". I said.. Why doesn't HE GO? She said b/c he didn't "want to". I told him that I wanted the comp and they started yelling @ me and told me I couldn't do anything about it. It's not JUST the computer incident... it's EVERYTHING!!!
She's my sister and it hurts so bad putting up with the way she treats me. After I yelled back at them.. she pushed me into the door leading to the patio. She really scared me.. I hit my head, pushed her off me and told her to chill out. I can't hit her back... I just can't. We've BOTH been through so much abuse, that... I just couldn't hurt her. Mike walked up to me, and I told him if he so much as TOUCHED me ... I was calling the cops and charging him with assult and batttery. They really scared me today. She tried to push me over the 2nd. story balcony. I don't know... I'm just sooo ready to get out of here.
I'm depressed, upset, scared... I just don't need this. It's one thing after another. Too much for me to handle. I'm not emotionally stable enough for this. really!!! I'm doing everything I can to keep her happy enough to not get violent... but it's always the same. I cried for about 5-6 hours today.. what's wrong with me???? I'm so sick and tired of them using me the way they do. I'm always getting yelled @ by them b/c I don't cook the way they want or watch the TV shows they want to watch. My mom's home... I should go... Love you all.. Thanks for your ear Bobbie.. I really needed it!