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[uniquelyme]

i really hate this a whole lot.
how is it possible to have all the feelings of crying but no tears to relieve all the tension built up inside?

i'm afraid
i'm really afraid

i wish there was a way to say it all

i am afraid i am going to mess things up with you
i am afraid that I am going to scare you away
I am afraid my life is going nowhere
i am afraid that i have no idea what i am going to do with myself
i am afraid that i am wasting my money
i am so afraid

theres nothing to fix about you and that really scares me. i'm scared i am going to make something up to fix about you... and then i will ruin it all. have i, already?