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wow, i'm bored out of my mind, and i could be doing something productive... as in packing for going back to moms. Sad thing is that she won't be there. no. she will be in the air or in Vegas, waiting for a long time to go to Mineapolis in which she'll have to wait some more to go to Duluth. then get there at 10 something in the morning tomorrow... fun times for her right? Then you have to consider the reason she went through all the crap to get there. the fact that her mother is basically dying and everyone is getting scared. So not only is she not here, and i'm not there to be with her, she and her sisters have to do some major coping and not get to be with their mother a whole lot because she's been sleeping a lot. And it would be horrible if my mom didn't get there before she went. i think my mom would be really torn up. you have no idea. so now i'm really kinda sad despite the fun i'm having/ am going to have. i miss my mom already, and i just dropped her at the airport about 2 hours ago.
in other not so much news, i still like him. in fact the feelings have grown, and i hate it kinda.
I get to hang out with Andrea tomorrow... that makes me really happy. Prom dress window shopping at park place!! w00t.
so the message i left myself from The Fray concert has finally been automatically deleted from my phone. it makes me sad. it also means it's been 29 days since i meet danny... interesting huh? too bad i haven't really talked to him in a few weeks. but i think at this point i'm kinda glad... it makes it an easy out for me. i suppose that isn't the nicest thing to say because he is a really great guy. i'm just not ready to dive into something.... especially with someone who is getting ready to settle down and such. i told Mallory that i was more attracted to older guys, but i thought about it and it's less pressure with guys closer to my own age. and not all of them are complete idiots.
the main thing is that it's not only the guys. it has a lot to do with where my head is at too. and the fact that i really need to mature myself up. i think in some respects i have a good head on my shoulders and i am pretty darn mature compared with others my age. Yet there are certain things that make me seem like a freshman or middle school kid.... and that's not really me. or maybe it is and i just haven't really grown up. i think it could have something to do with the fact that i haven't had a boyfriend, yet at the same time, 'm kinda glad. i don't know. i feel pretty underexperienced in that whole area, but i'm going to deal with it all sooner or later anyway.
whatever. Maybe i'm just PMSing.
.the end.
in other not so much news, i still like him. in fact the feelings have grown, and i hate it kinda.
I get to hang out with Andrea tomorrow... that makes me really happy. Prom dress window shopping at park place!! w00t.
so the message i left myself from The Fray concert has finally been automatically deleted from my phone. it makes me sad. it also means it's been 29 days since i meet danny... interesting huh? too bad i haven't really talked to him in a few weeks. but i think at this point i'm kinda glad... it makes it an easy out for me. i suppose that isn't the nicest thing to say because he is a really great guy. i'm just not ready to dive into something.... especially with someone who is getting ready to settle down and such. i told Mallory that i was more attracted to older guys, but i thought about it and it's less pressure with guys closer to my own age. and not all of them are complete idiots.
the main thing is that it's not only the guys. it has a lot to do with where my head is at too. and the fact that i really need to mature myself up. i think in some respects i have a good head on my shoulders and i am pretty darn mature compared with others my age. Yet there are certain things that make me seem like a freshman or middle school kid.... and that's not really me. or maybe it is and i just haven't really grown up. i think it could have something to do with the fact that i haven't had a boyfriend, yet at the same time, 'm kinda glad. i don't know. i feel pretty underexperienced in that whole area, but i'm going to deal with it all sooner or later anyway.
whatever. Maybe i'm just PMSing.
.the end.