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so, i did something kind of dumb last night, even though people have tried to convince me that it wasn't dumb, but somehow i think they were just trying to make me feel better. i suppose maybe in retrospect it could have been a lot worse. To be perfectly honest, I don't really know why i did it either. I knew the response i was going to get, yet for some reason I just did it anyway. and obviously, i got the response i was somewhat expecting to get, yet i was still sort of surprised. I'm not gunna lie, last night I was a little upset, but then again, wouldn't you be? today, I'm just a little bummed, but other than that I'm good. It's a small thing but i'll get over it.
It's funny sort of, because people are used to me being happy like all the time, that the second i'm not in the best mood, people being asking "Woah, who died?!" someone actually asked me if i was emotionally stable. I mean, I amy be upset, but i'm pretty sure my emotions are in perfect stability. lol people are weird.
Lucky for me, I'm leaving for illinois tomorrow. It probabley came at about the right time. it'll be good for me to get away for a bit. There are certain people that I really want to see while I'm out there, and i don't know if I'm actually going to get to. hopefully i will.
On a totally different note, though somewhat contributing to my mood, some of my other relationships have been sort of rocky lately. I really just don't know whats going on. Things have changed. and I don't know if i'm the only one who sees it or not. I just hope things get better because i'm not sure i'll be ok if they don't. Thank God for my good friends. thats all i can even say. Some who i never really would have thought would have been there for me, are the first ones to ask if i'm ok. and its nice =]
oh god. its 10:15, and i still have so much to do! AND i have to get up at 3 in the morning to get ready to leave . gahhh..
toodles.
<3
It's funny sort of, because people are used to me being happy like all the time, that the second i'm not in the best mood, people being asking "Woah, who died?!" someone actually asked me if i was emotionally stable. I mean, I amy be upset, but i'm pretty sure my emotions are in perfect stability. lol people are weird.
Lucky for me, I'm leaving for illinois tomorrow. It probabley came at about the right time. it'll be good for me to get away for a bit. There are certain people that I really want to see while I'm out there, and i don't know if I'm actually going to get to. hopefully i will.
On a totally different note, though somewhat contributing to my mood, some of my other relationships have been sort of rocky lately. I really just don't know whats going on. Things have changed. and I don't know if i'm the only one who sees it or not. I just hope things get better because i'm not sure i'll be ok if they don't. Thank God for my good friends. thats all i can even say. Some who i never really would have thought would have been there for me, are the first ones to ask if i'm ok. and its nice =]
oh god. its 10:15, and i still have so much to do! AND i have to get up at 3 in the morning to get ready to leave . gahhh..
toodles.
<3