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School has ended and now we have an entire two months of freedom before it all begins again. I went to P.V. graduation last Thursday and I saw Colin for the first time in almost six months. I wanted to reach out and touch him to make sure he wasn’t a figment of my imagination. I have so many questions for him. Is he still with Ashley? What is his life like now? Where does he work? Does he think of me? Does he miss me? I miss him; I miss being able to talk to him. I miss us together. Will I ever really get over him? He was my first kiss; my first love. Every time I see him all the old feelings come back whether I want them to or not. He is so beautiful. Such perfection in all his characteristics. Why did I push him away? Its been so long I’ve forgotten all the hurt and pain. I wish I had a way of contacting him. Would he talk to me even if I did. Would it all just cause the wound to be re-opened. I don’t know but I am willing to find out. Someday… It will all just happen I’ll leave it up to fait if it is meant to be we will find out. I need to call my girlies. Kati-Lynn and Carol Ann I am so sorry I haven’t called you guys. I’ve been in the weirdest mood in the whole world trapped in my little cave pondering life. I miss you two though I’ll call you both this evening to see what’s up. Does time affect anything?