Mixed bag of emotions
I'm excited, scared, nervous, anxious, happy, sad, tired, lazy and so much more all at the same time. I don't recall ever feeling quite as conflicted as I do right now. I'm glad that my schedule is finally starting today. Even though I've lived here for a week (hoooly crap it feels so much longer than that!), I haven't had anything really start yet. But today I'm going to babysit for a few hours and then I have my first official class of the semester. I'm shitting my pants though over my field work because once again as always I don't have anything set up and I'm supposed to start at the end of this month. I had the same issues when I was in undergrad and still in the education program. I don't understand why I always have a problem with these things - I feel like I haven't been lazy but am I just not putting in enough effort? Am I not bugging the shit out of people enough which is why they haven't gotten back to me? Ugh, I hate feeling like a failure when I haven't even started school yet! I know something will work out but it's so stressful and frustrating.
Speaking of frustrating, my fuckin car is a piece of garbage. Basically I've had the issue before where the passanger side carpet is somehow damp. But last night I was heading out somewhere and when I sat down in my car there was litterally a pool of water, instead of just some dampness. I hate this weather it's been raining waaaaay too much for my liking or for my car's liking apparently. I haven't even gone out yet today to assess the situation because I can't bear to deal with it right now. I gotta do that soon though. Crap. I need to print stuff out at the library which I should go do now because if I wait longer, it'll be too late.
Oh well, I was gonna post more but I should probably go be productive finally.
Speaking of frustrating, my fuckin car is a piece of garbage. Basically I've had the issue before where the passanger side carpet is somehow damp. But last night I was heading out somewhere and when I sat down in my car there was litterally a pool of water, instead of just some dampness. I hate this weather it's been raining waaaaay too much for my liking or for my car's liking apparently. I haven't even gone out yet today to assess the situation because I can't bear to deal with it right now. I gotta do that soon though. Crap. I need to print stuff out at the library which I should go do now because if I wait longer, it'll be too late.
Oh well, I was gonna post more but I should probably go be productive finally.