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[unique_old_me07]

Being angry at you,
and not talking to you everyday
makes it so easy to forget you, forget this year.

I cannot stand the way
that you, innocently, over there
unaware of this stage in my life
can just traipse back into it for 4 minutes
and make my heart tug again.

So I'm aloof.
I'll send you thoughtful letters.
But the anger I've had at myself,
has finally fallen somewhat onto you,
then back at me.

And finally what I am best at--pushing those feelings away.
Because none of this, none of it at all is even worth it.