I have changed so much...

[unique_heart]

I have changed a lot.
I will be the first one to admit it.
Since I came here from high school my sacred views on life have changed so much.
Damn, I hate it, yet Im not complaining.
Is just that I feel like such a freaking hypocrate
I hate that feeling, I hate knowing that I wasent true to myself
I hate being wrong and letting them be right.
But I admit I have failed
I admit I have done what I said I would never do.
I feel like I have cheated myself.
Last night, or morning or whatever
I could of said no, or I could of laughed it off
but I couldn't I wanted it so bad...
SHIT! Why! Why! couldn't I just say no,
I mean pshh she is freaking hot but still you know
CRAP ON ME!!! I mean i don't think it meant anything to her
and Im not gonna go head over heals for just one kiss.
I just wish I could of taken a bigger risk
yet I wouldn't of changed anything about that night.

However, this smile in my face, is so hard to get rid off.
I'll end it here tonight on this post.
If i have another chance I have no clue
how I would react.

Peace brothers.
damn it sure was the best experience in college so far, I mean working on my car doesn't even come close.