dead leaves and the dirty ground
you know what pisses me off? bitches that get on me about not going to college. guess what? IDGAF! i do not want to go to college. it would be a waste of my time and money. and if you think you are better than me because you are in school, fuck off. seriously. i am probably 800x smarter than most people and i dont need a degree to do what i want to do. i am perfectly happy playing guitar, and hanging out with my bf and going out. i dont need a degree to get married and have a baby, i dont need a degree to write and play music. so seriously. get a life. people have a hard time getting jobs with degrees and just because you went to college doesnt make you smart. i dont need calculus and whatnot to be happy and succesful. success isnt measured by money in my eyes. its by doing what you love and being happy. sureee i could take out loans, go to school, work in an office and be in debt for the rest of my life, but id rather not. so have fun and do you, and ill do me. k. peace.
sorry i needed to rant lol. that was directed at someone in particular but i wont name namesss.
i have been trying to deal with my anxiety lately, its gotten really bad over the past year or so and it doesnt help that i am moving back and forth between here and somewhere where i dont know anyone. i am the worst at making friends. i am so awkward and nonsocial. when people i dont know speak to me, i dont know how to react so i try to make it as short as possible, therefore i come off as a cold bitch. like ive been told this to my face. i mean, i am a bitch, but only if i dont like you. so odds are i do like you, im just shy. and apparently i intimidate people....? :/ someone wrote in my truth box thing on myspace that with my black hair, lip ring, and i kid you not "ice cold glare" that i look really scary and unapproachable....hmm i wasnt aware a 5 ft tall little girl could be intimidating. but i guess i am. hmm thats weird for me to hear because once you get to know me im super nice and hyper and loud. lol. i guess i need to try to be more friendly to strangers. its not that im mean really, im just SUPER shy. eh that was another random rant.
eh oh well. its just lj, i dont ever write very well on here lol.
xx peace