I'm a big boy now
Last night when the power went out in River Springs, I lay pondering in my bed. Looking at the shadows caused by my candle that smells pretty, like a flower I would imagion, I sat. Lately I've had this immense feeling of frustration, discontent if you will. I just don't understand it though, it's not that I don't appreciate and value the things that are going on in my life it's just started to feel that it's all going no where.
Looking back, it's all turned out not at all like I had once imagioned it. I thought that once you graduated you would more or less just wake up one day knowing what you were going to do with you life, have your friends a wife and dog. With this constantly on my mind it's making me doubt and question everything else I have going for me.
WHAT HAVE I MISSED OUT ON!
It feels like when constructing my life I greatly over looked large aspects which have now come back to bite me in the behind.
Fuck shit fuck, I just need change. I need to get out of this place that I am currently in.
On a lighter note I got some neat green playing cards today in vancouver.
*super special note: these feelings will most likely resolve themselves over time or become repressed. I could really just be stressing out due to the end of my childhood.
Looking back, it's all turned out not at all like I had once imagioned it. I thought that once you graduated you would more or less just wake up one day knowing what you were going to do with you life, have your friends a wife and dog. With this constantly on my mind it's making me doubt and question everything else I have going for me.
WHAT HAVE I MISSED OUT ON!
It feels like when constructing my life I greatly over looked large aspects which have now come back to bite me in the behind.
Fuck shit fuck, I just need change. I need to get out of this place that I am currently in.
On a lighter note I got some neat green playing cards today in vancouver.
*super special note: these feelings will most likely resolve themselves over time or become repressed. I could really just be stressing out due to the end of my childhood.