Didn't See the Movie Today
Last night I tried to go to bed early to get up early to see Shrek this morning, but as with every night before I have to get up for something, I couldn't sleep. I was also having anxious thoughts thinking back on how I've wasted the past, how I miss my father, and how all sorts of bad things could happen soon -- with people dying. I took a Klonopin, but I don't know if it helped me fall asleep. It eventually calmed my frightening thoughts. Today, though, my brother said he didn't want to go to the movie today-_- My mother thought it was because he was tired, but he says it's just because he has to watch Shrek 3 today before seeing the 4th movie in theater. Shrek isn't that complicated -- I'm sure the 4th movie will make sense without seeing the 4th. So tomorrow morning we will go. The library is closed so I will just go on Tuesday when I go to drop off my painting for the monthly art show at the art league. I do have a book from April to read, several classics I bought used, and the rest of my Bourges fiction book. I'm also rewatching my Gargoyles dvd sets so I can watch the following episodes online (the whole series wasn't released on dvd). I tend to be rigid and plans get solidified in my head, so when plans get interrupted I feel rather bad. I want to learn greater flexibility. At least this isn't too upsetting for me.