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Jan 19, 2005 11:37

A year ago...

...my little girl was with me, on this earth. A year ago I could hold her and kiss her and make her smile for the camera. A year ago I could hear her voice and run my fingers through her hair. I could say that I have a daughter. After Sunday, the day she died, I can no longer say she was here a year ago.

It's snowing outside. As a kid, I loved the opportunity to see snow. To play in it and miss school. Yet, on the way to school today the sight of it brought me to tears. It reminds me of those dreadful days a year ago driving back and forth to Omaha in the blistering snow to the hospital.

And, if I had put her in the ground a year ago, it would have been under the snow.

Even though I wouldn't want to have to go through all that again, I would give anything to go back a year ago to see my precious baby and tell her all the things I have wanted to say this past year. Only this time, I would never let go.

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I may not be able to do all the things I used to do with her... but I can still sing to her. No one and nothing can take that away from me.
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