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i broke someone's heart today. i haven't done that in a long time. it's not easy. at least not as easy as it looks when it's done to me. it hasn't been done to me in a while. it's because i'm numb now. i like being numb. i'm numb because i'm weak. i'm weak because i'm numb. i'm both because i'm stupid. i feel bad for her. she opened up. i shut down. she's better off without me. that's what i'll tell myself. distance sucks. she's far away. i'm right here. that other girl is right here too. not that it matters. i have many levels. i only know of one. i haven't been on this side in a long time. it sucks just as much as the other side. at least on that side i can feel sorry for myself. on this side i feel sorry for her. pitying myself is more fun. it's what i do. crazy days. probably another song. everybody knows my name. nobody cares. i don't care. do you?