Twilight saga
I've been reading the Twilight books for the bast couple of weeks. I've never been so into a set of books. Not even as much as Harry Potter. I can so see myself as Bella. Feel every bit of pain, anquish, love, caring, and regret she feels. The writter of these books is good. Too good. I have a hard time putting them down. Even now, I've lost a majority of my Easter Sunday just reading. I probably needed to do nothing like this after all the stress I've been under, but still there is so much to do.
But in a way I think I can understand why. Why I'm so involved wtih these books. When I read them its like I'm there. I've even cried a little with the characters. But I think its because I need the escape. I've been under so much stress and emotional mess with my Mom and everything, my brain needed a break. Last time I was under this much it was JPM that kept me sane. But I know now the pressure I put on him was too much and its part of what ended our relationship. So this time being in this other world has helped me. The bad part is sometimes I don't want to leave it. Its such a good story and I love the love that she feels from Edward. But its not good to be stuck there. Not when I'm needed in reality. There is housework that needs to be done. I need to take care of the things my Mom needs. And of course there is work. But it just feels so much better in this other world than here. My Mom is in so much pain and suffering. It hurts so much to see her hurt. I hate having to constantly make these hard decisions for her and take care of so much. Sometimes I just want to curl up into a ball and have someone hold me and tell me its going to be okay like he used to so long ago. But I have to stand on my own this time whether I like it or not.
Oh well. I've just finished book 3. I've at least got book 4 too see me through a little while longer if I don't finish it too quickly.
Reality stinks.
But in a way I think I can understand why. Why I'm so involved wtih these books. When I read them its like I'm there. I've even cried a little with the characters. But I think its because I need the escape. I've been under so much stress and emotional mess with my Mom and everything, my brain needed a break. Last time I was under this much it was JPM that kept me sane. But I know now the pressure I put on him was too much and its part of what ended our relationship. So this time being in this other world has helped me. The bad part is sometimes I don't want to leave it. Its such a good story and I love the love that she feels from Edward. But its not good to be stuck there. Not when I'm needed in reality. There is housework that needs to be done. I need to take care of the things my Mom needs. And of course there is work. But it just feels so much better in this other world than here. My Mom is in so much pain and suffering. It hurts so much to see her hurt. I hate having to constantly make these hard decisions for her and take care of so much. Sometimes I just want to curl up into a ball and have someone hold me and tell me its going to be okay like he used to so long ago. But I have to stand on my own this time whether I like it or not.
Oh well. I've just finished book 3. I've at least got book 4 too see me through a little while longer if I don't finish it too quickly.
Reality stinks.