I'll be digging a grave tomorrow.
One of duae's family cats died tonight, some time between 3am and 3:30.
Two days ago I was the one that pointed out she felt bad to the touch, she was bony and her fur was matted. The day before that I saw her throw up into one of the water bowls. I was the one who checked up on her last and found her. I wrapped her in a towel because I didn't think her family would be able to see her and keep some composure, I cleaned the bathroom after that so they wouldn't see her or any of the feline effects in the morning to remind them.
She's in the garage right now and it's nearly 10F. I've positioned her, closed her eyes, and wrapped her back up in the towel with hopes she'll keep the same serene expression. I want her to look like she's sleeping.
The ground's frozen, but I'm still going to dig a grave for her. I'd start tonight, I'd like to do something with my hands, but there isn't a light outside near where the site will be.
She wasn't my cat, and I didn't know her well, but I feel like I have to do all of this. It's because I found her first, when she was sick and when she had passed, and because I want to take care of this and try to make it as painless as I can for Duae, and because it feels better to take control of the situation and actually do something worthwhile instead of just taking up space while they grieve.
It's finally over, Lady Grey. Rest in peace. I can do the rest.
Two days ago I was the one that pointed out she felt bad to the touch, she was bony and her fur was matted. The day before that I saw her throw up into one of the water bowls. I was the one who checked up on her last and found her. I wrapped her in a towel because I didn't think her family would be able to see her and keep some composure, I cleaned the bathroom after that so they wouldn't see her or any of the feline effects in the morning to remind them.
She's in the garage right now and it's nearly 10F. I've positioned her, closed her eyes, and wrapped her back up in the towel with hopes she'll keep the same serene expression. I want her to look like she's sleeping.
The ground's frozen, but I'm still going to dig a grave for her. I'd start tonight, I'd like to do something with my hands, but there isn't a light outside near where the site will be.
She wasn't my cat, and I didn't know her well, but I feel like I have to do all of this. It's because I found her first, when she was sick and when she had passed, and because I want to take care of this and try to make it as painless as I can for Duae, and because it feels better to take control of the situation and actually do something worthwhile instead of just taking up space while they grieve.
It's finally over, Lady Grey. Rest in peace. I can do the rest.