it's been 50 eleven days, umteen hours
things are complicated. yes. ok that's been stated. so this song is so good. i kno it's old but "burn" is such a good song man seriously. ironically ive been thinking about burning my journal. my hand written journal, the one i actually physically write my deepest, truest feelings in. it has way too many memories man. it'll break my heart just to read it. it has some good memories tho too, i kno it would make me smile and laugh. but overall it's just a book that will haunt me if i read it so yea... im also thinking that if i dont burn it (it would so cool to watch it go in flames tho) im not reading it again till im 50... literally. and i kno im prolly gonna buy another one cuz the one i have right now is almost finished. just 3 or 4 more pages to go. so wut would be the point of putting away the other one if im still gonna write in ANOTHER one yet again? i don't know... thing is, im the type of person who likes to be reminded of things. i dont like letting things go, it's a bad habit cuz it makes me remember and 'suffer'. that's why my mom always tells me "u like to make urself suffer". I HATE WHEN SHE SAYS THAT >_< it makes me feel like crap even more. and it's always why im the sensitive type when it comes to things. i really dwell on whatever is happening and i think about it too much. bad habit. i cant wait till school is out so i can just chill with friends and be FINE and not have to deal with schoolwork. but yea im feeling much better!! im actually kinda smiling :)