let's begin

[unhingedxmaniac]

last night was a major bust.
drank a lot at the pier with andrew and schriner.
drank too much.
then i went home and continued my drunken escapade by yelling at all my family members.
then i started freaking out and bawling.
and i had a nervous breakdown.

after i had my breakdown my mom wouldn't let me leave, which is exactly what i needed to do. but she let me have a cigarette in the basement, which was nice.
but when she did let me leave i was very relieved.
andrew and i went to riversplash with a few of his friends and he got a little tipsy and wanted to leave so we went to his house.

i really enjoy spending time with him. i don't mind the lack of committment in our 'relationship'.
i'm having fun and i enjoy his company and he enjoys mine so its all good.

so with the drunkenness... i might go to rehab or some treatment program along those lines.
either way, andrew and i quit drinking for at least a week together. we can do it. it's going to be tough as shit but we're gonna do it.
together, too.

i'm very nervous for some reason. can't get over the feeling of anxiety.

carrie