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[unhingedxmaniac]

i'm so lost in all of this bullshit.
i just don't understand.
there are feelings
but any sort of relationship is out of the question.

i miss kris.
i miss talking to him and hearing whats on his mind.
he was a staple in my life.
and he's gone.
he doesn't give a damn.
but i never expected him to.
and i don't condemn him for not wanting to hang out with me.
i'm a liar and a cheater
a drunk
a tramp.
but i've got principles.

so
been drinking wwwwwwaaaaaaaaaaayyyyyyyyyyy too much.
been cathcing up with me this morning.
i don't give a damn though.
for some reason, i'm actually not concerned about my newly reserected habit.
i don't think i have a problem.
but then again its common knowledge that people who think that they don't have a problem
actually have a problem.
and thats what worries me.

i'm really fucking sunburnt.
the senior picnic was yesterday up at mouthe lake.
its was pretty fun.
i was a little sunburnt from monday at the beach with andrew.
but now i'm super sunburnt.
in pain.
but i guess i'll deal with it.
got fucked up before and during the picnic.
it was awesome.
took some awesome pictures.
i was looking at the pictures just a few minutes ago.
and i looked at one i took of andrew yesterday.
and he looks damn good with the scruffy-ness.
i just realized it.
hee hee hee.

i should go to school.
blah.