so yea...snow ball sucks
So, in case you couldn't guess from the title, I'm not going to snow ball. I never actually asked the guy that i wanted to go with, which I think is the biggest reason that I am pissed off about everything. I feel like if I had actually managed to not be a complete idiot and actually asked him then maybe.....but yea i didn't so i'm not going. I let Steph try and get it to work out, but when she asked him if had had found any one to go with, he said that because everyone was making such a big deal about it he had no interest in going anymore. Which really fuckin sucks. And i think everyone in my apartment is going. They are trying to get me to go but I don't really want to go by myself, I've done that before, many times actually and i'm sick of it, all i really wanted was to have somebody to go with who wanted to go with me...is that so much to ask for?? Apparently it is. This year started out really great, but now...i don't know, but with all of the drama going on and all of this....i hate that lately all this has been used for is depressing entries, but i can't really help it. I don't really want to talk to my rommmates about it because i feel like i'm just bringing the mood down and i always get the same answer from everyone anyways, "don't worry...It will happen...Don't let it bother you" but it does bother me, and i can't help that. ehhh what the fuck is wrong with me, honestly, i'm not normally a depressed person, i don't usually let things bother me but this does. i don't feel like i am pretty, and i have had my friends and roommates argue with me over that a lot, but i honestly don't feel like i am, and i don't think i ever really have. so yea, thats my rant for today....now i have to go to class...