sometime i hate being a girl
ok, well first of all, i know my roommates are going to read this and ok guys-don't worry i just need someplace to get this out and this always seems to work....so i hate being a girl and having PMS because when i do i get depressed and that depression usually manifests itself with me getting really pissed off at guys and feeling like i will never have a boyfriend. I feel like a loser because i've never had a boyfriend before and i guess i just dont feel like i will ever have one. i always feel like everyother girls is prettier and more likeable than me. and i know that i need to just be more outgoing and trust me im trying, but its hard when you feel like there's no reason...like they wont like you either way.
and it doesnt help that so many people around me are getting boyfriends or people that are atleast showing an interest in them...i dont feel like any guy has ever held any interest in me ever. it really sucks, especially when im happy for what my friends have found, but at the same time really resent that i can't get that... so yea, basically thats whats goin on and i guess this song pretty much sums up what i feel:
Hands touch, eyes meet
Sudden silence, sudden heat
Hearts leap in a giddy whirl
He could be that boy
But I'm not that girl
Don't dream too far
Don't lose sight of who you are
Don't remember that rush of joy
He could be that boy
I'm not that girl
Every so often we long to steal
To the land of what-might-have-been
But that doesn't soften the ache we feel
When reality sets back in
Blithe smile, lithe limb
She who's winsome, she wins him
Gold hair with a gentle curl
That's the girl he chose
And Heaven knows
I'm not that girl
Don't wish, don't start
Wishing only wounds the heart
I wasn't born for the rose and the pearl
There's a girl I know
He loves her so
I'm not that girl
and it doesnt help that so many people around me are getting boyfriends or people that are atleast showing an interest in them...i dont feel like any guy has ever held any interest in me ever. it really sucks, especially when im happy for what my friends have found, but at the same time really resent that i can't get that... so yea, basically thats whats goin on and i guess this song pretty much sums up what i feel:
Hands touch, eyes meet
Sudden silence, sudden heat
Hearts leap in a giddy whirl
He could be that boy
But I'm not that girl
Don't dream too far
Don't lose sight of who you are
Don't remember that rush of joy
He could be that boy
I'm not that girl
Every so often we long to steal
To the land of what-might-have-been
But that doesn't soften the ache we feel
When reality sets back in
Blithe smile, lithe limb
She who's winsome, she wins him
Gold hair with a gentle curl
That's the girl he chose
And Heaven knows
I'm not that girl
Don't wish, don't start
Wishing only wounds the heart
I wasn't born for the rose and the pearl
There's a girl I know
He loves her so
I'm not that girl