009; winter turns.

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They'll have midnight Mass at the chapel. I'll be going, myself- might even be singing. I think it's a good time to slow down.

How've you been, Wanda?

[unhexed]

I hope you do sing. I'd like to come to the Mass, I think.

Adjusting, to put it mildly. And you?

[makes_you_tick]

You're the second person to tell me that today. I think I will, then.

Adjusting? To the City? I know it's tough- but you'll come through it okay.

I'm...frustrated, that's probably the best word for it. But I'll be fine. It's the nature of the season sometimes, I think.

[unhexed]

Thank you for that.

Why are you frustrated? If you don't mind telling me.

[makes_you_tick]

Sure.

Well- a lot of reasons, I guess. Most of them are kind of stupid. I don't know how great I'm doing at this "helping people out" thing- but I'm trying , right?

[unhexed]

That's something, yes.

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I think you and I find ourselves in similar positions, as it concerns the notion of redemption and helping other people.

Trying means a lot. Do you want to talk to me about it, or...?

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[makes_you_tick]

Similar positions? What do you mean?

If you don't mind listening, sure. I've been trying to help people out, do good things, and- still, people stare at me like I'm some sort of monster. People I've never met. Clearly, I'm doing something wrong. I think that's the major thing that's bothering me right now. It makes me wonder if its just too late to try anything, and I don't really like thinking of that.

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[unhexed]

I've hurt people, too. But I'm trying to decide what to do now.

It's never too late. Why do you think they stare at you?

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[makes_you_tick]

You have? Everyone hurts others- but I assume you mean something a little more serious than that, if it warrants a decision.

I'm not sure why. Maybe they see it in me. Maybe I don't know how to hide what I've become, anymore. It might come down to the fact that I wasn't scared enough.

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Yes, much more serious, I'm afraid.

Sometimes people are afraid of individuals who can do what they can't. I don't know for sure. But you're doing this to help them--not to make them like you. Right?

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[makes_you_tick]

Can I ask what happened? If it's personal, I understand.

I'm really not sur Of course, I want to help them. Especially during the last event, we had to do everything we could to spare people that infection.

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[unhexed]

I'm different from most other people. Sometimes I lose control of what I need to keep firmly in check.

You must have been very busy. I think...you may have to be patient, but again, I won't presume to know the exact details.

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[makes_you_tick]

You're different? Is this an emotional control issue or more of a special power sort of thing?

I tried my best. And I think you might be right. Patience hasn't been one of my virtues lately, but I'm working on it.

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[unhexed]

The latter.

Sometimes it just helps to have a core of people who support you, even if the populace doesn't.

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[makes_you_tick]

You have a power you lose control of sometimes? Maybe I could help with that. I have an ability that helps me figure out other people's powers, how they work, how to use them, how best to control them.

-then again, that might not be the best idea.

I'm still getting used to having anyone support me, much less a few people. It's not really something I've had in my life before.

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Mine doesn't really work that way, I think, but I appreciate the suggestion, either way.

It makes sense that it would be frustrating, then. You're changing your entire life.