pressure.whoa.
stressing
last week and this week are seriously sucking the fricking life out of me. im freaking nervous as hell about my ap gov and ap bio final...and of course they are on the same effing day. Noooo we wouldnt wanna give heather a break..master of the universe...no we have to screw her over with the two hardest finals on the first day..TOGETHer.
im super stoked for this summer. sooo many cool things are happening! europe for 2 weeks-my cottage with jessica-my sister amys wedding in boston-and all the other random and fun things that happen in the summer! and then tonight i found out that i might be going to boston another time in like september or something so i can shadow my sister amy at her job soo i can decide if i wanna be a PA or not. hah its a damn good excuse for a nice little weekend trip to MA.
im kinda irritated lately. not exactly sure why. i think im just fed up with people being so self involved and not just kicking back and being random and fun. and theres the part of me that is super irate about people just ignoring how other people feel and going on their jolly way ...leaving someone else back there with no one to talk too. mm that sounds like the story of my life for the past month or two.
im kinda sad i dont get to see more of ppl. esp. ppl like amal, jess, rachel, and alex. i dunno i guess life just gets in the way.
ever get the feeling that you just cant help people with anything? i hate knowing that someone is sad/depressed or angry about something and knowing that i can't do anything to make them feel better. and to top it off i gotta go and have feelings for them. lovely heather. way to screw yourself over.
same old story's back again..
shes not a lover..she's just a friend
and then i love how people just dont say what they feel..i mean i do that..but i just wish other ppl wouldnt be like me in that respect..i realise this is very hypocritical but oooo well i hate hiding feelings and that seems like all i do. i should just these people what i feel. but im almost positive it wont happen until they do it first. yeah heather=chicken
i love how i find little ways to put myself through more crap without even knowing it.
i need a hug :( and a boy and big screen tv with finding nemo playing. i think that would pretty perfect right now.
it's times like these you learn to live again
it's times like these you give and give again
it's times like these you learn to love again
it's times like these time and time again
love me???