I think he winked at me once

Sep 15, 2007 11:17

I'll be right back.
What? Where are you going?
I told you, I'll be right back.
But why are you leaving?

Trust me, I really don't want to go.
No, we understand. I'm just worried about you driving around this late at night with a car that you just fixed. I'd rather take you myself.
You're so nice, Zach. But I'm sorry, I have to do this.
I know. It's alright. I'm just worried.

Hey, I made it back alive. Sorta.
Oh god, what happened?
Oh, nothing. It just seems that the paint on my door was too thick or something, we had to sort of break the door jam to get in. So now my door jam is slightly broken.
I'm so sorry. This really hasn't been as good a night as I planned it to be.
It's not your fault. You've been great, and I had a lot of fun. And we'll hang out later.

Goodnight, Zach. Sleep well.
You too. Goodnight.

--

3.5 months until I leave. There is no force on Earth, save Death himself, that will stop me from going.

So of course I meet someone who stimulates me intellectually and physically like no one has before. Well, the former definitely, the latter...well, I mean, Chad was hot.

At least I can learn from this experience. This is what I want my partner to be. This is what I'm looking for. So when I find someone like this later on, I'll be able to recognize it and go after him with a passion.

And who knows? Once I am away from the friends that have shaped me for so long now, once I start a new chapter in my life, perhaps I too will change and become something else. I've always been a chameleon. I'm still learning who I am and how I think and feel and respond to the world.

Leave it to me to go from a codependent boyfriend to a celibate crush.

Discord, you might as well toss your Golden Apple. All hell may break loose anyway.

I feel like Echo for Narcissus. Except he's not conceited.

Like Apollo for Daphne, that is probably the better metaphor...though Apollo and Hyacinth would be more relative in gender aspects (even though Hyacinth is killed by a blow to the head from a discus because Zephyrus was jealous...so perhaps this one doesn't work as well either...stick to Apollo and Daphne).

But, oh well. Life goes on.

Z
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