oh wow.... 4 years later.....
so i havent used livejournal in four years, but tonight i felt like i really had to, and maybe from now on i will.. i realize that only 4 or 5 of my friends actually still use it, but thats okay. i am kinda tipsy... this is okay too.
i hate my boyfriend. and he will never read this. he makes me feel like complete shit, physically and mentally. i really do not feel like i deserve this.
i was the only person at the bar tonight not dancing. i came with 8 other girls. i did not dance. i had about 12 mixed drinks and 3 shots... and i am barely buzzed. and i was the only girl that none of the guys talked to. ugh. am i just intimidating, or did i just get ugly? fat? i dunno. not sure.
girls night out was suppose to help. it did not. i just cant wait for russia. three weeks away. fuck mike, and him thinking he's the shit. he's not getting my car or my laptop for those three weeks, so fuck him.
i miss Ted, so much.
i hate my boyfriend. and he will never read this. he makes me feel like complete shit, physically and mentally. i really do not feel like i deserve this.
i was the only person at the bar tonight not dancing. i came with 8 other girls. i did not dance. i had about 12 mixed drinks and 3 shots... and i am barely buzzed. and i was the only girl that none of the guys talked to. ugh. am i just intimidating, or did i just get ugly? fat? i dunno. not sure.
girls night out was suppose to help. it did not. i just cant wait for russia. three weeks away. fuck mike, and him thinking he's the shit. he's not getting my car or my laptop for those three weeks, so fuck him.
i miss Ted, so much.