A little rant at too early in the morning
How many of you have ever been in a bad relationship? I have a question, was the problem the way that that other person treated you, or was it the fact that you let them do it to you. Think about this…. That way I phrased the question implies that these are the only two choices there are. But in real life its so much more. it’s the way they look at you when you get them something they like. it’s the hope that things will change for better. It’s that desire we have to want to think that we are doing the right thing, it’s that “winners don’t quit” mentality placed and mutated to be true of our relationships, even the bad ones. It’s that security that makes you feel as though they’ll never leave you because of what you do for them and what you let them do to you, or is it that constant fear? That fear that makes you think that if this person ever left you , that you would be lost. Hopeless. That everything we do is in vain. Maybe, it’s a dark feeling that comes when someone might make a stance against the way things are dealt that tells us to live with what we were given, or that we don’t deserve more. It’s these things, the human things that make up relationship that can go so terribly wrong. Similarly its that small things that make a relationship so terrifically right. The little reminders that they care. Not love, that comes in the mind, that comes from the sum total of everything that happens. I know this now. I know what it is to be loved. it’s a realization of things greater than one’s self. Its so much more than anything we can put a finger on, and even if you could, would you want to? Im not saying that I know more than the next guy or girl. Sometimes, things that are said can really be expressed in certain situations. Life holds the cards in this one. You cant force what you don’t feel, you cant imitate those things that would otherwise be freely given.