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i wish things were clearer. it's like, they seem so clear, but then they're not.
i surrendered myself tonight. and as Joy as my witness. I know it's out of my hands.
i said outloud you're killing me, and Joy told me, "that's what you've needed to say all along"
i know i can't do this on my own. i know it. i need you here with me. every step of the way.
this is hard. i am suffocating. i can't do it on my own.
so i said it again. screamed it.
you're killing me.
i need you.