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It is so ironic how things have turned out. Once again I'm sitting here frustrated like anything (which turns out the be the only time I ever do update my LJ). For the past week, it seems like everyone has been getting on me and getting mad at me over something. Between my parents constant nagging, or my friends always having something smart to say, or someone who is very dear to me just getting on me about seemingly nothing at times. School is stressing me out and it pisses me off to no end when people who are in standard classes complain about having a lot of homework. Unless you are in IB 11/12, a college student, or a GT/AP senior, you have no idea what the definition of HW is, so please don't complain. Up until a couple weeks ago, I thought Sara wanted nothing to do with me, but I was wrong. Things started to get better between us and feelings started coming back and I was so happy and excited for the fact that everything seemed like it would work out. Once again though, things just have gotten pretty bad. I know this is probably going to blow over and things will be fine in the end, but right now I'm feeling bad enough without someone yelling out in psych. class, "Michael got more female adj. then male!" Right then I just wanted to die of embarassment. That pretty much sums up my day, it sucked like a vacuum. I was just so convinced that things between she and I were going well, especially after all of the good things that have happened, but this week it was like she was always mad at me over something, even though I wasn't doing something, I wasn't doing it well enough, or I was doing it too much. I just feel like I can't win. I care about her a lot, especially after all that has happened, but sometimes I question whether she does or if she does at all. :/ IDK. It's like sometimes we say one thing to each other, and then do another. I know I do a lot to add to everything, but I just wish things would just be better and we could forget about this week so far and have an awesome time at Homecoming. I'm really excited about it, but I'm really nervous. IDK. Right now, I'd do anything to have things back to being how good they were last week between us, but at the same time I don't think she'd want it or even want me. Who knows? Jeeze, girls are so confusing. lol TTYL.