when will this day end?
well today beens purely shitty, well most of it anyhoo.
yesterday i said i was holding, mostly went okay, just had one hiccup with one leaving early cos she was really ill but shes okay so thats good :)
the other is cos of so called friends, that managed to still be an issue today. surffice tosay im deeply confused as to why im being made out to be some evil bitch. lets put it this way when i was home from worki had messages on my phone askin why i was spreading stuff ..needless to say i wasnt the resulting conversations i had ended in me ending in what i thgouth was a good friendship (im not going to be treated like that by some one i now seriously consider a child) and also resulted in me question which other friends i can trust at work. this also lead me to be in floods of tears with some very loud (think bella stupidly screamin in her dreams in new moon kinda thing, stupid but yes i was that bad....ive stopped now so no need to slap me for my own good).
it has seriosuly depressed me, my poor boyfriend didnt know what todo, bless him though he came and just hugged me until i forced him to go make himself some dinner cos his gurgling belly was getting to the extent of my crying.
im ok now. cue the some what calm update your getting here, trust me pre shower this update woulda been a crap load different, im talking making the the most deprest emo seem like a happy lil chipmonk from happy lil chip monk land (im aware this probably doesnt exist but my brains fried, my eyes are stupidly puffy as im stupidly allergic to my own tears after a period of 1 mintue crying....not a great look...and....and well cos i said it exists soo shhhhh).
so i wanna thank kajmere for dealing with my sobfest emo bb messages, your a doll and i love you looooooooads. also thank my bf who doesnt even use lj so is kinda poitnless but im going for a emmy thank you speech here so touch, and also i wanna thank my lovely warm shower and finch blaring out of my speakers whilst in said lovely warm shower.
thank you....oh and thank you god......!!! what they all say that dont they?!!!!!
so yeeeeeeahhhhhhhhh, tomorrow im back at work, it will be interesting , im gonna see if i can hide and do delivery allday but seeing as area management are in for the day who knows :(
so i shall sign off now, i think ive finished my weird incoherant seemingly very odd update today, i promise im not....i shall save that for friday, i wasnt going to drink how ever after today i bloody well am.
anyhoo hope your all well and had a better bloody day than me
loads of huggles and loves
UH x
just because every needs a yummy pic me up :)
yesterday i said i was holding, mostly went okay, just had one hiccup with one leaving early cos she was really ill but shes okay so thats good :)
the other is cos of so called friends, that managed to still be an issue today. surffice tosay im deeply confused as to why im being made out to be some evil bitch. lets put it this way when i was home from worki had messages on my phone askin why i was spreading stuff ..needless to say i wasnt the resulting conversations i had ended in me ending in what i thgouth was a good friendship (im not going to be treated like that by some one i now seriously consider a child) and also resulted in me question which other friends i can trust at work. this also lead me to be in floods of tears with some very loud (think bella stupidly screamin in her dreams in new moon kinda thing, stupid but yes i was that bad....ive stopped now so no need to slap me for my own good).
it has seriosuly depressed me, my poor boyfriend didnt know what todo, bless him though he came and just hugged me until i forced him to go make himself some dinner cos his gurgling belly was getting to the extent of my crying.
im ok now. cue the some what calm update your getting here, trust me pre shower this update woulda been a crap load different, im talking making the the most deprest emo seem like a happy lil chipmonk from happy lil chip monk land (im aware this probably doesnt exist but my brains fried, my eyes are stupidly puffy as im stupidly allergic to my own tears after a period of 1 mintue crying....not a great look...and....and well cos i said it exists soo shhhhh).
so i wanna thank kajmere for dealing with my sobfest emo bb messages, your a doll and i love you looooooooads. also thank my bf who doesnt even use lj so is kinda poitnless but im going for a emmy thank you speech here so touch, and also i wanna thank my lovely warm shower and finch blaring out of my speakers whilst in said lovely warm shower.
thank you....oh and thank you god......!!! what they all say that dont they?!!!!!
so yeeeeeeahhhhhhhhh, tomorrow im back at work, it will be interesting , im gonna see if i can hide and do delivery allday but seeing as area management are in for the day who knows :(
so i shall sign off now, i think ive finished my weird incoherant seemingly very odd update today, i promise im not....i shall save that for friday, i wasnt going to drink how ever after today i bloody well am.
anyhoo hope your all well and had a better bloody day than me
loads of huggles and loves
UH x
just because every needs a yummy pic me up :)