neverending love
I am so sick of this life. It's really starting to stink. Well, not everything has gone wrong. I still have a relationship with God, which is better and stronger than any thing my mom could take away from me; I still have my dad and sister. I guess some people will call me blessed. I know I would if I were on the outside looking in. I would give ANYTHING to have my mom back. Even my car. (and for me that's a big deal.) But, I HATE her. As a christian, i've tried to forgive her, but, how can you forgive the person who every time you talk to, rips out your heart and considers you dead? She acts like I'm going to die soon... I could, but, it's doubtful. She wants me to accept her boyfriend. She wants me to love him like I love my dad... yeah right... Man I hate them... But, yeah, I'll forgive her when she stops screwing him....