im not beautiful like you, im beautiful like me
i just finished watching Ginger Snaps 2:Unleashed..it was a really good movie..i didnt fully understand it, so maybe i should see the first Ginger Snaps..that might help...so anyways me and my mom were fighting last night...yet again..but we made up when i was going to bed..that always happens, im still a bit mad at her though cause she wont give me ANY money at all, yet she gave my brother 1800 in rent money..yes cause thats just oh so fair! oh i really dont give a shit anymore...i just really wanna..die and i think i will actually kill myself soon, im not afraid anymore, and i havent been for awhile...im dreading going back to school..im just gonna get so much more stressted out...my mom says she might put me into the mental hospital down in London..ill be there for a long time...but you know..i kinda wanna go there..cause i think that would be the only place that would beable to help me now...i hate waking up depressed..the day hasnt started and im already sad...that doesnt help me cause i always have a bad day...jeezus christ..i wish i would just die already..i might be moving out of my moms soon..as soon as i get a good job and yeah..save up my money..i told her i wanted to drop out this year..and she really doesnt care...and no i dont care if its stupid or not..i hate everyone at my school basically, i cant stand being there anymore...its not that i hate learning or sitting in class..i just cant stand the people at my school..CAUSE THERE ALL FUCKING PREPS!! and they dont fucking know how to be quiet..im gonna fucking snap this year i can just see it now...FUCK...ok now im really mad and depressed cause i really really do not wanna go back...i just wish i could get away from here, go where no one knows me and start my life over new..well i would bring my boyfriend..but i just need to get away..i think im going to get my tattoo on friday..cause i might be going to the free show..and its downtown..so it would be the perfect time to get it done..sigh...