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i wish i could say that i was happier since the last post, but alas i cannot. i had my councelling and all that this week. it was good, i am always happy when im there with my councellor. but then when i come back out in to reality, its like wow. why is my life even worth living? i know i promised michelle i wouldnt do it, but its becoming a harder thing to promise people. i dont even like to promise them, its just they dont shut up about it if i dont. so thats the only think that makes me go "ok ok i promise i wont do anything" EHHH wrong. i dont promise you people that im not going to do anything. you dont have to live this life do you? you dont have to wake up in the morning wishing that you wouldn't of. so you cant possibly know what its like, and to make me stay here for your own selfish reasons while i wallow in misery..oh yes..thats fair. maybe when you actually get what im going through, you'll understand why i cant possibly stand to be here anymore. or maybe not, but im sick of staying just to make people happy..DO I SEEM HAPPY TO YOU? yeah you may be happy that im still here...BUT IM NOT! big surprise there..