really mad...
Right now im really mad, I wanted to come up to my grandmas house to see my mom, and then i get here and all this drama between my parents start again. it almost feels like i make them this way. i hate it and im going crazy right now, my mom calls my dad a few mins ago and im in the bathroom next to her room listin to here conversation and my dad is seriously trying to make me and my mom and brother move to idaho. im so mad. and basicly , if we don't go to idaho. my parents will not get back together, im so confused! but i cant leave c.a there isnt a way in the world i would evr want to leave permently. uh i dont know! my mom is crying right now and just asked me if it would be okay if we moved to idaho and.. and of course i said no. im really confused, i cant take this anymore! this fighting between them, and the whole moving situation. all of this is jus driving me completley nuts! i feel really traped right now, i dont want to move to idaho, because i will miss evryone way to much my friends are seriously like my family! and if i dont move, then my parent will not get back together. im so bad i just cant take it. no .i dont know! i dont want to talk to my mom right now, about anything because i know i will get all emotional. so i dont. and now she thinks im mad at her. and im not. i hate being confused. espshaly about seriouse stuff like this. it hasnt ever been this bad befor. at least im almost sure? on tope of that i cant use aim. i cant talk to my bf, and the ONLY time i ever talk to him is online.. and if we EVER talk on the phone we dont really talk , but it still makes mefeel better it just feels like someone is there. i dont know! i wanna go on aim and talk to him but i cant! this stupid computer. this stupid house. my stupid parents. uh.
im going crazy im misrible and all i want to do right now is sleep and talk to my bf, and just know that all this shit will stop. but it dosnt. i cant sleep. i cant talk to my bf and its not like any of this is going to ever stop. it seems to go on and on and on, neverending.......
im going crazy im misrible and all i want to do right now is sleep and talk to my bf, and just know that all this shit will stop. but it dosnt. i cant sleep. i cant talk to my bf and its not like any of this is going to ever stop. it seems to go on and on and on, neverending.......