This one's for the torn down, the experts at the fall

Apr 28, 2014 13:58

Avengers

Note: Most of these have spoilers for Captain America: the Winter Soldier

All the First Times by
Vera_DragonMuse
Excellent look at Bucky coming back to himself, and finally, to Steve. Oh heart.

all things to all people all of the time by
dirgewithoutmusic
Excellent look at Natasha through the movies.

and my feet stuttering to make a path by
defcontwo
Natasha, starting to find herself in the aftermath. Lovely.

And you that shall cross from shore to shore years hence, are more to me by
ifeelbetter
Somehow, his flesh still hurt. It wasn't the pain of the broken pieces or the dull ache in the metal arm. It was something...bigger. Something that hurt in a way not localized to his flesh but associated with it.

His thoughts turned to Captain America suddenly--but not him, a miniaturized version of him, covered in a sheen of sweat and a sickly pale color but blinking and happy, a grip on the hand that had settled on top of his on the bed--and the pain eased. It was like a tightening ache escaped on the air as he breathed out.

He'd found a way to fix the broken flesh, he could fix this hurt too. The Winter Soldier tries to fix himself and his memories.

Apple Cake (and other remedies for an ailing soul) by
noharlembeat
Someone keeps leaving apple cake for Captain America. This is lovely and wistful.

Atonement by
beastofthesky
Piecing himself back together is the most difficult thing he's ever done. It's messy. It's awful. The first night, he falls asleep with Steve sitting on the edge of the bed, exhausted, and he gets ripped into consciousness by a nightmare so vivid that it takes him minutes to reconnect his body to his brain once he realizes that he's trying to kill Steve, trying to keep following that last, hard-wired order.

Steve's hesitation to reach out and touch him once he's finally forced himself still is understandable, but he hates himself for it anyways. Bucky slowly pieces himself back together.

blue skies over bad lands by
sevenfoxes
The truth is that in the Red Room, there was no part of Natasha her that truly belonged to herself, so it had never bothered her to seduce men, to sleep with them. She had hurt herself, cut and burned her own flesh in pursuit of her missions. Her mind was the last fortress, and by the end, she had given over that as well. It was difficult to explain to the woefully unprepared psychologists trotted out before her that it hadn't hurt her in the least to sacrifice these things at the time, and even now, on the other side, she still carries few regrets. They are prices for war and survival.

Natasha is only learning now how to make choices for herself, how to claim ownership over herself, her body, her desires. It is as foreign as first learning to walk or speak, stumbling along the way.

The first time Natasha sleeps with Steve, it is a choice she makes for herself. Steve's not the only one whose past rises up to haunt them. Sharp, merciless look at Natasha's relationships in the Red Room and after it.

Bucky And Mister Rogers by
impertinence
Bucky accidentally becomes a surrogate brother to half the neighborhood, purely via the power of PBS. I would watch hours and hours of Bucky being big brother to a bunch of neighborhood kids in Cap 3. Just saying.

but the fires are coming by
stitchingatthecircuitboard
After the movie, the Winter Soldier tries to find himself. Oh my heart.

By Proxy by
lonelyantics
The Winter Soldier reaches out to Sam. Sam's not sure how he feels about this.

The Care and Feeding of Traumatized Ex-Assassins by
Sholio
The first time it happens -- or, Steve realizes later, the first time he knows it's happened -- is after one of Sam's VA meetings. Steve is usually out late on those nights, sticking around after the meeting to get a cup of coffee or a drink with Sam, and it's after ten when he unlocks the door of his DC apartment.

He flicks on the lights and pours himself a glass of water, and that's when it hits him that something is ... off. Slowly, slowly, Bucky starts to come back to Steve. Lovely.

Cross The Same River Twice by
littlerhymes
The Winter Soldier goes back in time to protect pre-serum Steve Rogers. It's all very Terminator 2. Oh heart.

Escape by
Sholio
Missing scene from CA:TFA, exploring what happened after Steve rescued Bucky and the prisoners but before they make it back to camp. Steve deals with the supersoldier learning curve. Oh, Steve.

ghosts in the machine by
hollimichele
Two can keep a secret, if one of them is dead. Peggy learned the truth of that a long, long time ago. She's been left with a lot of secrets to keep, down the years. Like: Peggy Carter doesn't age, not like a normal woman. Peggy Carter faked her death, with a little help from Howard Stark. Peggy Carter found out there was a cancer at the heart of SHIELD, and she's been trying to stop the rot for a long, long time. AU where Peggy also got the serum. Lovely.

hold me tight by
hollimichele
11k words of post-movie Steve/Bucky. *happy sigh*

How to Win Friends and Influence People by
igrockspock
Maria Hill's interview at Stark Industries. Perfect!

i revive, see it when i come alive by
biggrstaffbunch
You've known me your whole life, he said on that Helicarrier as it blew apart, fragment by fragment.

He is right. Born 1917 in a hospital to a mother and father, or 1944 in a research facility to a murderous political faction, or 2014 within the belly of a flying, crashing war machine. Each time, each life, each person you have been. Every single one of them knows Steve. He is the root and you are the ground. He is embedded in you inextricably.

You might not know yourself. But you know him.

That is something of a start. Bucky, trying to find himself in the aftermath. Lovely.

Inauguration by
Zelus
Fury would tell the rest in his own time. Romanov was off discovering herself; Rogers was chasing his ghosts. Someone has to keep the pieces together, and it sure as hell wasn't Stark.

She wasn't Fury, not yet. But she was learning to be. Maria Hill, in the aftermath.

Leviticus 25 by
domarzione
"You want to save Bucky Barnes? You are going to have to put your own house in order first because he is going to need a rock to cling to. You are not ready to be that rock for him. You owe it to him -- and more importantly, you owe it to yourself -- to figure things out, figure out how you can be happy in this time and place, whether or not Barnes is with you." Sam lays down some real talk on Steve before they go searching for Bucky.

Mistake on the Part of Nature by
idiopathicsmile
Bucky discovers something different about the future. ADORABLE.

No Angel by
domarzione
Some Sam backstory and a key missing scene from the movie.

no heart to recall by
KiaraSayre
The Winter Soldier goes to Captain America to complete his mission. It doesn't turn out exactly the way he planned. Oh Bucky.

one of us will break it by
zauberer_sirin
Sharp look at Natasha during Cap 2.

Parachute by
RemoCon
Steve thought if he could just get Bucky face to face again, he could break through. Sam wasn't Steve. He'd led enough therapy sessions to know that pressing too hard didn't fix people, it broke them. But this wasn't PTSD, wasn't anything he was used to dealing with. Bucky keeps appearing when Sam goes for coffee. Aw.

Parallel Constructions by
freshbakedlady
In between, Rogers looks in love. He studies the way Rogers leans against Barnes, the way his eyes linger on him, the way his slightly greater height lets him curl protectively around Barnes. None of the official documents say anything to support it. One of the interviews with Peggy implies she and Rogers had something going on, but she's quite emphatic that Rogers brought her and her future husband together. The official stories seem to let that lie as well. Rogers, they imply, loved America and Truth and Justice and no one else.

Unofficially, he is not the only one to think the photographs tell another story. Rogers is not the only one with adoration in his eyes and hands that cling too hard and too long for propriety. He goes back to the exhibit, looks again. He thinks, maybe, he can see a little space, a lacuna where the official story doesn't quite meet the truth on the screen. He thinks, in that space, he can maybe see room for himself to be James Buchanan Barnes. Because Barnes loved Rogers and went to his death to prove it.

Now, Barnes will come back to life for him. Really lovely, post-movie recovery for Steve and Bucky both. <3

Past Tense by
Ark
He is eighteen and more alone than he has ever been when Bucky tells him that he's not. Bucky grips Steve's slender shoulder, and looks into his eyes, and swears he'll be in it 'til the end of the line.

Many of their classmates are getting engaged or flat-out married. They have this exchange instead. Steve remembers his life with Bucky as he falls.

people should see how we're living by
seventhswan
Soft, lovely look at the beginning of Bucky's recovery.

persistence of memory by
hollimichele
"I got tired," he says, eventually.

"Of what?"

"Of killing people. Not a useful trait, in an assassin,"

To his surprise, this elicits a tiny smile, no more that the upward turning of one corner of her mouth. He's starting to get the weird sense that this woman is fond of him.

"It's a useful trait," she says. "In some circumstances. Trust me."

To his greater surprise, he does. really excellent Steve/Bucky/Natasha from Bucky's POV. no spoilers for Cap 2

Problem Solving by
persiflet
Pepper deals with the aftermath of Cap 2 in the best way she knows how.

Reconstruction Site by
EmilianaDarling
Captain America had chosen to go down without a fight. The most tenacious mark the Winter Soldier has ever faced, who made it out of a dozen situations that should have killed him against all reason, had let his shield fall from his hands. Had been willing to let the Winter Soldier do anything to him as long as it meant he didn't have to hurt the man he believed to be his friend.

'Cause I'm with you 'til the end of the line.

It had been incomprehensible. World-ending.

It had almost been enough to make him want to be the person that Steve Rogers sees when he looks at him. Lovely Bucky POV coda to the movie.

Riviera Life by
Omnicat
Steve was the first to move, but in the end, it was Bucky who lunged into the embrace. Trembling, lungs working like bellows, a sound like a wounded animal in his throat, Bucky clutched Steve with all the strength he had now, and Steve - who had been hesitant, who had meant to go slow, gentle, unthreatening - found himself clutching back like he could pull Bucky into his chest and keep him there forever, safe and loved and whole. He could smell his own shampoo and cologne on Bucky before tears flooded his eyes and his nose closed up. Adorable story with Steve/Bucky reunionating hugs. <3

Run Until the Road Runs Out by
ignipes
"I'm going to sleep," Barnes says.

He's been doing that lately, started it up a couple of weeks ago, not too long after he finally started answering to his name. He announces simple actions before he does them: I'm going to sleep. I'm getting a sandwich. I'm taking a shower. I'm going to shoot that guy. I'm getting some air.

It breaks Sam's heart a little more every time, because Barnes doesn't say it like he's giving them warning, like he's waiting for them to flinch. That would be bad enough, but it would be understandable. Instead he says it defiantly, uncertainly, like he's daring them to say no. No, you can't sleep. You don't need a sandwich. You don't get to shower. You don't need any of that.

"Me too," Sam says, a beat too late. "Good night." Sam's POV on his weird yet burgeoning friendship with Bucky Barnes.

She Walks Into Mine by
ashen_key
Natasha finds the Winter Soldier. Yes, good. Takes what the movie told us about her and finds a way to mesh it with comics canon.

Something in the way he moves by
sirona
This man is not the same man Steve Rogers used to know, a lifetime ago.

Steve Rogers does not care. Lovely, satisfying Steve/Bucky.

Source Decay by
psikeval
Lovely coda to CA:TWS

The Steven G. Rogers Guide to What You Missed the Last Few Years by
what_alchemy
Steve helps Bucky get up to speed on the 21st century. Adorable.

The Supersoldier's Amnesiac Groom by
casspeach
Steve Rogers has always known that the supersoldier serum was a gift, and he's never been afraid to do what's right.

When Uncle Sam asks him to unite the two sides of the Cold War by taking part in a symbolic union with a fabled Russian assassin, Captain America doesn't hesitate to do his duty.

Little does he know how thoroughly his world is going to be turned upside down. Absolutely delightful Steve/Bucky arranged marriage AU with amnesia and FEELS.

Take Aim and Show Me What You Know by
withthepilot
Natasha holes up with Clint after the events of Cap 2.

testament by
paxlux
The Winter Soldier remembers. Lovely.

this is a back alley by
Febricant
Really lovely post-movie story where Steve, Sam, and Natasha search for the Winter Soldier.

Through the notches in your spine by
caughtinanocean
Ridiculously hot and lovely Steve/Bucky porn.

To make bright and clear your path by
lanyon
Really lovely coda to the movie.

today begins and it's all that we have by
Fahye
Natasha runs the tip of her middle finger back and forth along the arrow where it sits in the hollow of her throat. She looks at him, steady, and says, "Everything I need is in this room." Lovely Clint/Natasha in the aftermath of Cap 2.

together undivided (forever we'll be free) by
mwestbelle
In which captain's clerk Steve Rogers, rescues the dread pirate Winter's Captain.

too old to die young now by
Spatz
The irony of asking a woman with a ruined memory for answers is not lost on him, but he's already here. He should at least try. The Winter Soldier visits Peggy for some answers. Lovely.

we did not make ourselves by
M_Leigh
25k of post-Cap 2 Steve/Bucky that hurts in the best way. Second person POV, and also I'm not sure I buy Tony's characterization, but it's a lovely look at the lengths Steve will go for Bucky.

where the air is rarefied by
Siria
Sam sagged back against the couch, rubbed a hand over his face. Man, he needed a shower and a whole other pot of coffee. "What I don't get is why none of the history books ever said Captain America was a goddamn smartass."

"Congratulations," Darcy said solemnly, "you have officially reached the appropriate level of jadedness for living here." Adorable Darcy/Sam.

Whizbang and the Flyboy by
circ_bamboo
Adorable Carol/Rhodey set during Tony and Pepper's wedding.

words that became hard to say by
defcontwo
Lovely, melancholy look at Steve dealing with his feelings for Bucky and Peggy over the years, and then SAM being AWESOME at the end.

your favorite ghost by
augustbird
These are the moments that Steve wants to forget: Bucky's face silhouetted in the morning sun, Bucky's smirk around the cigarettes he tried his best not to smoke, Bucky's arm around his neck, their heads bent together, five thousand iterations of Steve's name in Bucky's voice. Because it hurts more than it ever made him happy. Because if he went back in time he would follow Bucky down all the same paths, make all the same stupid decisions until they were face to face in a falling airplane, Steve dropping his shield and calling out Bucky's name. Melancholy follow up to the movie. Oh Steve. Oh Bucky.

(You're My) Phantom Limb by
verizonhorizon
Sam's not Steve's only visitor in the hospital. *sobs*

yourself (or someone like you) by
biggrstaffbunch
Steve has always thought Bucky was more than he really is. Has always looked at Bucky with searching eyes and a small smile, like he knew secrets that he wasn't telling. Steve's always-

When Steve looks at Bucky, he doesn't see the wreckage.

But that's what Bucky is. What he has been since he was a kid, aimless and angry, mercurial as a New York summer. He's not the Winter Soldier, the clean, clinical, contained force of a bomb. He's James Buchanan Barnes, the burnt-out husk of the building it hits. Really lovely look at Bucky putting himself back together.

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