Jun 26, 2006 22:40
ok yeah... I have what could only be considered a dysfunctional family.... Let me start at the beginning. Today was my photo exam, it went well and I'm oficially done school until september. WOOO! GO me! go SUMMER! so yeah... I have a nice quiet day around the house, relaxin and doin some fun stuff... getting myself into the summer feeling and de-stressing. Its good.. and then... lo and behold.... at 10 pm, I am asked what did not seem like a loaded question at all... would you like to go see Superman with your sister and her friend? And then... oh yeah you could bring Danielle along too. This was my dad saying this... unbenkownst to him though was that my sister had her own agenda (who knew?!?!) So I invited Danielle and after a little bit of coaxing... you heard me coaxing, (not a lot, shes pretty cool,) she said yes. So... I go downstairs, and tell my dad that Danielle wants to come too... and thats when the bomb exploded. The sister bomb of mass destruction. It started off small... "Ohhh.... what they're coming, I wanted it to be just Merryn and me." and then oh my god, she said the same thing a lot louder when she didn't get the reaction she wanted. So it deteriorated quickly from there... my dad was trying to get the tickets online, calling my mom to see what was going on, and jen bawling her eyes out, you heard me, hysterics, literally something you'd see in some movie when the main guy character gets killed in front of his girlfriend, but worse. She explained through her body racking sobs that she wanted it to be perfect, and that if Danielle and I went along, that everything would be ruined, that her perfect plans she had for ages would just be destroyed. I was pretty ticked about this, I mean why the hell can't we come? Are we too old? Are we going to cramp her style? We keep to ourselves when we go out with Jen, just cause shes a snob when we're together anyways. The way I see it is the way Jen has been since she was a little kid, if she doesn't get her way, she cries, and then she gets what she wants. This debate went on for a while.... everyone for once on my side, thinking that Jen was being mean/dramatic/a suck, the meantime shes crying and sobbing, practically hyperventialting on the stairs. I just looked at this as disgusting, that I was going to ruin her perfect plans, and have to hear about it forever, and also have her and her friend be super snobby to us at the movie, I also realized that I didn't really want to go with her if she was going to be like that. The other thing that came to mind, and this is what I first mentioned to my parents and then to my sister, is that I'm not a little wussy who will cry when I don't get my way, and that I can get over seeing the movie, while telling my parents this, I also made sure that they only bought 3 tickets instead of 5. I told Jen that it was a recurrance of my whole childhood, her crying and getting her way, and me having to compromise, I also told her that I wasn't going to cry about it, because I am mature and can get over things. This sent her into more hysterics, she started saying that we could come, and that she made a mistake, and I told her that it was already too late, the tickets had been bought. She started scream crying, screaming half senences about being a horrible person and hating herself, and ruining everyone's lives, I was upstairs painting a shelf for my room at this point, and could hear her from up there. You know... I didn't really know how to feel... I mean its not right that she should be so adamant that we couldn't go and then start crying about it, but its sad to see her get so down on herself. I mean yeah I gave her a bit of a hard time, but I was pissed off, and what I was saying was warranted. This is not the first time I have seen her cry like this, this is actually the most recent of many times, the other was quite recently and she was on the internet. She was on the floor pounding it, screaming and crying last time, it had nothing to do with me, and I still don't really know what it was about. I'm worried about her... I think that she has taken my parents' break up way too hard, she has been really moody and touchy about things and won't talk to me about anything, she also has seemed really down and grumpy. I don't like seeing my little sister go through this, its tough for me to just have to sit there and not be able to do anything myself. I think that she needs to talk to someone, a psychologist or something. I really don't know how to get her to go though, she really doesn't seem to want to talk to anyone about her feelings, and is trying to bottle them up. Problem there, is that they are bursting out. What do you think I should do? Any advice?
I hope you are all doing real well... I'm trying hard to be doing so myself, but there are still some bumps in the road, at least I have you all to have fun with. :)