love me two times....
well tomorrow is my birthday and i keep forgetting pretty much. because i am not really excited at all. it's a drag to only be turning seventeen because i feel like i should be at least eighteen. I hate still being labeled a kid and having to follow with this dumbass probation. i hate probation sooooo much! i feel trapped inside my own life. i can't really do anything and it is breaking the law to hang out with all of my loved ones.
everything going on with me and mitch is driving me nuts........as much as i am enjoying everysingle day i fear the worst. he has never given me anything to fall back on and i always just set my self up to get hurt i think. although since we broke up last year we have gotten back together three times now, but not actually labeled it back together. we just spend lots of time together and usually after he decides to kiss me he gets back with his dumb fuckin ex girlfriend. who i know this time is out of the picture but still it would be just my stupid luck for her to come back in. but for the last threee days i have just hung out with him and i think that having sex was a bad idea but i dont know that yet. i would LOVE for us to be together again but i dont know how well it would work,my probation offficer says that i am not allowed to hang out with him which is fuckin bullll shit. i cant hang out with him or nik and they are my two favorite people.
but whatever!i have to take whatever comes and enjoy the most that i can in case for some reason it does all fall apart.
everything going on with me and mitch is driving me nuts........as much as i am enjoying everysingle day i fear the worst. he has never given me anything to fall back on and i always just set my self up to get hurt i think. although since we broke up last year we have gotten back together three times now, but not actually labeled it back together. we just spend lots of time together and usually after he decides to kiss me he gets back with his dumb fuckin ex girlfriend. who i know this time is out of the picture but still it would be just my stupid luck for her to come back in. but for the last threee days i have just hung out with him and i think that having sex was a bad idea but i dont know that yet. i would LOVE for us to be together again but i dont know how well it would work,my probation offficer says that i am not allowed to hang out with him which is fuckin bullll shit. i cant hang out with him or nik and they are my two favorite people.
but whatever!i have to take whatever comes and enjoy the most that i can in case for some reason it does all fall apart.