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I had the day off yesterday.. but it doesn't feel like it! i'm still so incredibly exhausted! i think i just need to take matthew to his dad's and let me get a couple of good nights rest by myself. it's hard to sleep next to him sometimes because he always spreads as far out as he can.. and so half the time, his legs are all over me. it's kind of comforting to be honest.. but sometimes it prevents me from going to sleep because i can't get comfortable.
idk. i'm just tired. i can't believe i already feel burnt out after being licensed for only 4 weeks. today starts my 5th week.
but then again.. i didn't know i'd be working every single fucking day.. and not even making hardley shit! it's so hard because i don't have a clientel.. and working in a dominican hair salon is tiring because i don't speak spanish. it has it's ups and downs. like the fact that i can't talk to some of my spanish only speanking clients. it sucks because i have to work in silence. but it's also fucking golden because i have to work in silence! i don't have to force conversation or listen to the stupid bullshit. and i get to concentrate on my speed and shit.. which.. i definitely can tell that i'm so much faster!
and i totally impressed myself yesterday because i did a nice long layer cut on this 1 woman.. and then this other woman with mad long hair came and wanted a layer cut but towards the bottom.. lady looked at me funny while i was doing it.. but i was able to determine how to achieve the cut she wanted instead of just doing what i know how to do. it was pretty awesome. i was excited because i really felt like a stylist. i knew how to go about achieving it which is awesomeee.
i'm also thinking about going short again. the disconnect in my hair is driving me absolutely NUTS. i can't standdd it.. but i'm honestly afraid to get my hair cut at my salon because they mostly do either long layers or short grandma afros.. and i want something sharp, edgy, and in between.. like what i had before. i sorta feel like i should call rachel and let her do it because she would give me something HOT and funky like i want. but then again.. i don't want to part with my hair because it's taken FOREVER to grow out!
idddkkkk. if i wait like 6 months.. i could probably just grow it out and have it blended right. or maybe i should just have extentions sewn in so i don't have to look at this mess on my head. i'm tired of it.
my money is slowly building.. not by much lol. but totally.. slowly.. building. i think i'm going to have to cut my hours short at D'cache soon and start getting a waitressing job because the money i make there isn't cutting it.
and i'm smoking cigarettes.. unfortunately.. but i'm conserving them to make a pack last me almost 3 days every time. it's not so bad. and it helps.
today is monday. no days off til sunday like every week! this week, i'm taking it easy and not over doing myself.. because i forced myself to keep going after work and it was HELLL.
by June.. i think i'll be able to pay back both my mom and dad.. which is awesome.
idk. i'm just tired. i can't believe i already feel burnt out after being licensed for only 4 weeks. today starts my 5th week.
but then again.. i didn't know i'd be working every single fucking day.. and not even making hardley shit! it's so hard because i don't have a clientel.. and working in a dominican hair salon is tiring because i don't speak spanish. it has it's ups and downs. like the fact that i can't talk to some of my spanish only speanking clients. it sucks because i have to work in silence. but it's also fucking golden because i have to work in silence! i don't have to force conversation or listen to the stupid bullshit. and i get to concentrate on my speed and shit.. which.. i definitely can tell that i'm so much faster!
and i totally impressed myself yesterday because i did a nice long layer cut on this 1 woman.. and then this other woman with mad long hair came and wanted a layer cut but towards the bottom.. lady looked at me funny while i was doing it.. but i was able to determine how to achieve the cut she wanted instead of just doing what i know how to do. it was pretty awesome. i was excited because i really felt like a stylist. i knew how to go about achieving it which is awesomeee.
i'm also thinking about going short again. the disconnect in my hair is driving me absolutely NUTS. i can't standdd it.. but i'm honestly afraid to get my hair cut at my salon because they mostly do either long layers or short grandma afros.. and i want something sharp, edgy, and in between.. like what i had before. i sorta feel like i should call rachel and let her do it because she would give me something HOT and funky like i want. but then again.. i don't want to part with my hair because it's taken FOREVER to grow out!
idddkkkk. if i wait like 6 months.. i could probably just grow it out and have it blended right. or maybe i should just have extentions sewn in so i don't have to look at this mess on my head. i'm tired of it.
my money is slowly building.. not by much lol. but totally.. slowly.. building. i think i'm going to have to cut my hours short at D'cache soon and start getting a waitressing job because the money i make there isn't cutting it.
and i'm smoking cigarettes.. unfortunately.. but i'm conserving them to make a pack last me almost 3 days every time. it's not so bad. and it helps.
today is monday. no days off til sunday like every week! this week, i'm taking it easy and not over doing myself.. because i forced myself to keep going after work and it was HELLL.
by June.. i think i'll be able to pay back both my mom and dad.. which is awesome.