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soo.. last night was totally a lottt of fun. i chilled with matthew, jay, and david. i love those guys. i always miss being with them.
jamcruise is this fucking weekend! holy shit! 4 more dayssss!!! i got my funk n' formal costume which is fucking sexyyy as fuuckkk! it's a ringmaster costume! and it was all shit that i already had! fucking awesome! i guess i'm gonna be domino for superheros or whatever. idk though.. i'm not feeling trying to make that costume because i'd have to sew and shit. idk. i'm gonna get matt up and see what he thinks i should do. i mean, i think if i just wore all black, skin tight stuff and make the black diamond around my eye, that would be fine. matt's talking about trying to get the costume like PERFECT and i'm not about that because i don't wanna have to go out and buy shit. bleeehh. who knows what i'm gonna do? all the other nights, i'm just gonna dress crazyy. i'm sooo excited about my ringmaster 1 though! it's soo hot! i love it! the only thing missing from it is a bowtie! and i'm gonna get that at a thrift store probably today.
ugh i've been out of town sooo much the last few weeks, holy shit. i'm like tired of not being able to sleep in my bed.
so for new years? idk..
last year, matthew and i broke up and fought and i went to dez's house for a party by myself. it sucked ass. seriously. this year, i think that everything will be fine.. but idk if we're doing anything or not. i reallyyyy want to. but who knows? none of my friends have talked about any parties or anything. but they're not really ones for parties anymore. and i don't like to drink so i'm kinda limited when i go out. i'm always the sober 1.. but it doesn't really bother me that much unless i'm with a bunch of people i don't know at all.
last weekend, i had a crazy ass night with my mom's best friend's daughter. it was fucking random and awesome and reaaallyyy fun! i lovee nights like that lol.. i always reallyy love how we ended up in a gay and hustler bar at the end of the night! hahahah! it was awesomee. for some reason, it's like i'm always around gay people constantly.. there's always at least 1 that wants to be my friend and hang out haha. we stayed there until like 6 in the morning! idk. everything's been going good! omfg! i need to get my period soon! jesus! i don't wat to have it on the cruise! pleeeasseee don't let me get in while i'm on the cruise!
anyway! i'm broke. all the money i have now has to be saved for jamcruise because i'm sooo fucking broke. i spend a shitton of money last night on stuff for me and matt. i swear, i'm like his sugar momma. seriously. months and months of this shit.. always buying him food, letting him use my car and gas.. getting him whatever his heart desires. it's getting old.. especially since i don't even have a job, but i have to somehow get money to take care of both of us.
sucks.
but whatever.. after the cruise, i'll be starting work and making money and shit will be good. i just need to gain more skill..especially with clippers. i'm not very good with them at all. i did a clipper cut for julio, and it took me fucking forever. i need to practice more.
i think i'm gonna go to the thrift store by myseslf while matts sleeping to get my bowtie. it should only be like a couple bucks.
idk why i love matt so much, still. it's been almost 3 years, and i'm still like infatuated with him. how does that fucking happen? you'd think it would stop after a while, but i really think i end up loving him more and more when i'm with him. i just think he's awesome for some reason, even though he's a fucking asshole sometimes.
ohh well, i think imma take a little nap and lay down.
jamcruise is this fucking weekend! holy shit! 4 more dayssss!!! i got my funk n' formal costume which is fucking sexyyy as fuuckkk! it's a ringmaster costume! and it was all shit that i already had! fucking awesome! i guess i'm gonna be domino for superheros or whatever. idk though.. i'm not feeling trying to make that costume because i'd have to sew and shit. idk. i'm gonna get matt up and see what he thinks i should do. i mean, i think if i just wore all black, skin tight stuff and make the black diamond around my eye, that would be fine. matt's talking about trying to get the costume like PERFECT and i'm not about that because i don't wanna have to go out and buy shit. bleeehh. who knows what i'm gonna do? all the other nights, i'm just gonna dress crazyy. i'm sooo excited about my ringmaster 1 though! it's soo hot! i love it! the only thing missing from it is a bowtie! and i'm gonna get that at a thrift store probably today.
ugh i've been out of town sooo much the last few weeks, holy shit. i'm like tired of not being able to sleep in my bed.
so for new years? idk..
last year, matthew and i broke up and fought and i went to dez's house for a party by myself. it sucked ass. seriously. this year, i think that everything will be fine.. but idk if we're doing anything or not. i reallyyyy want to. but who knows? none of my friends have talked about any parties or anything. but they're not really ones for parties anymore. and i don't like to drink so i'm kinda limited when i go out. i'm always the sober 1.. but it doesn't really bother me that much unless i'm with a bunch of people i don't know at all.
last weekend, i had a crazy ass night with my mom's best friend's daughter. it was fucking random and awesome and reaaallyyy fun! i lovee nights like that lol.. i always reallyy love how we ended up in a gay and hustler bar at the end of the night! hahahah! it was awesomee. for some reason, it's like i'm always around gay people constantly.. there's always at least 1 that wants to be my friend and hang out haha. we stayed there until like 6 in the morning! idk. everything's been going good! omfg! i need to get my period soon! jesus! i don't wat to have it on the cruise! pleeeasseee don't let me get in while i'm on the cruise!
anyway! i'm broke. all the money i have now has to be saved for jamcruise because i'm sooo fucking broke. i spend a shitton of money last night on stuff for me and matt. i swear, i'm like his sugar momma. seriously. months and months of this shit.. always buying him food, letting him use my car and gas.. getting him whatever his heart desires. it's getting old.. especially since i don't even have a job, but i have to somehow get money to take care of both of us.
sucks.
but whatever.. after the cruise, i'll be starting work and making money and shit will be good. i just need to gain more skill..especially with clippers. i'm not very good with them at all. i did a clipper cut for julio, and it took me fucking forever. i need to practice more.
i think i'm gonna go to the thrift store by myseslf while matts sleeping to get my bowtie. it should only be like a couple bucks.
idk why i love matt so much, still. it's been almost 3 years, and i'm still like infatuated with him. how does that fucking happen? you'd think it would stop after a while, but i really think i end up loving him more and more when i'm with him. i just think he's awesome for some reason, even though he's a fucking asshole sometimes.
ohh well, i think imma take a little nap and lay down.