this is the end....
we called it quits... it over... we talked and we're friends... I think I'm fine... I miss him already... but the pain will slowly fade... and after all we'll both be okay... he's not the one... the one is a myth... you make love it breaks you... and the cycle repeats... in the words of shakira "siempre volvemos amar".... and perhaps in the next life time we'll learn to love eachother... and perhaps God will give us another chance to make it right... but as for this life... we're over... and we're friends.... but I miss him... I miss him dearly... hopefully tomorrow I don't crack... I don't know where to go from here... I don't know whats next... so today daniel had called me so I called him back and he asked me why I had never given him a chance... why I chose gene over him... and I told him because he never asked... and I told him that I always cared for him but its not use worrying about that... cause everything is said and done... he's with joanne... wow... I feel relieved... but stuck... this is odd.. I'm tired but I don't think i can sleep... It all feels so sureal... I waiting for this odd dream to end... fuck... I'm feeling odd.... I can't describe it... I love him... but its over... and I can't tell if I'm okay yet... I'll let you know when I wake up.... so where do I go from here???
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