I've waited nineteen years whats is a few more months?
Gad I love him... more than I ever thought would be possible... I can't function properly if I haven't felt him in over a week... fuck... he is my everything... so much so that I would give up everything just for him... gad he is my fucking world or atleast the only part that seems to matter to me right now... I wish I could just die/live in his arms... fuck I need his warmth to survive! I know I'm stupid for just wanting him so much when he doesn't commit to me and when it feels like he never will... but honestly... in my heart I know he's the one! he's my fucking everlong.... he's the one!!!! I've never felt this way for anyone.... seriously! he's the one cause I can't imagine ever feeling higher than when we kiss.... or when he holds me... there can't possibly be another person who can make me feel better.... I love him even though I can only tell him I like him... I know he knows that he is my everything... I'm not sure what I am to him but I know I weigh on his mind heavier than most things... I know I won't have to wait for him forever but I am willing to wait forever... I finally showed him the ultrasound... fuck... it was nice... he seemed happy like it took his mind off all the bullshit... fuck... I'm his... I don't mind waiting for him to be mine cause no matter what.... I'm fucking his.....
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