Sometimes just waking is surreal
well I sorta talked to gene last night but not really.... umm... I was already asleep... but then I heard Jack johnson singing sitting waiting wishing and I realized that the person I'll wait for forever was on the line....well what was established? well its finally sinking in for him... ummm yeah its was a fucking akward 15 minutes of conversation that was filled with mindless small talk... I suppose its cause I was too tired to be all passionate about my feeling and he lacks the ability to even talk about his emotions... he's better at just staring at the wall... the only thing we really talked about was out newest fetures... his newest tats my newest piercings... ummm yeah I really need to talk to him... but its so hard to say exactly what I need to... but the truth is the sound of his voice makes my heart drop... fuck I need some balls... I guess it was also weird cause I had called him not expecting him to call back... and him calling me back was a step that I had hoped for, but everything I could have ever hoped for in my life just never plays out... fuck I'm a confused individual...
shit I listened to afi
for like the past two hours
just thinking of him...
I've come to the realization that I love this song
"Totalimmortal"
Hope unknown. Sometimes just waking is surreal.
I walk right through the nameless ones.
I know that hope's unknown.
Sometimes the water feels so real.
As I walk through it fills my lungs, my god, I'm drowning.
This day never seems to end.
This pain, never.
The rage I can not let go.
I hear them calling my name.
I feel them gnawing out holes through flawless souls.
So alone. Sometimes I swear that I can hear the taunting of the voiceless ones.
I fear that I alone fear those who finally ceased to feel that they're alone
inside this place.
I am the misplaced.
Now every face, it looks familiar...
then every face would melt away until...
now everyone, do you know, I know your deception?
fuck why do I get so easily attached? fuck me!
shit I listened to afi
for like the past two hours
just thinking of him...
I've come to the realization that I love this song
"Totalimmortal"
Hope unknown. Sometimes just waking is surreal.
I walk right through the nameless ones.
I know that hope's unknown.
Sometimes the water feels so real.
As I walk through it fills my lungs, my god, I'm drowning.
This day never seems to end.
This pain, never.
The rage I can not let go.
I hear them calling my name.
I feel them gnawing out holes through flawless souls.
So alone. Sometimes I swear that I can hear the taunting of the voiceless ones.
I fear that I alone fear those who finally ceased to feel that they're alone
inside this place.
I am the misplaced.
Now every face, it looks familiar...
then every face would melt away until...
now everyone, do you know, I know your deception?
fuck why do I get so easily attached? fuck me!