Abroad...
Well, after skimming through that last post, I know that you could definitely use some positive feedback, livejournal. And tonight, that's what I am here to bring you-- positivity while still achieving the sense of reality that seems to have kicked in during the last few months of my second year of college. See, what has really been irking me and stuck in the back of my mind lately is how stressed and worried I have become counting down these last few days until I embark upon my London/Dublin trip. But, ironically, what took me almost an entire week to realize since I've been back in Fort Lauderdale is this:
I AM GOING TO LONDON AND DUBLIN. AND I'LL BE DAMNED IF I'M NOT WEARING MY EXCITED PANTS WHEN I GET THERE.
Ok, well, maybe not exactly those words...But, regardless, this trip is the opportunity of my lifetime. And, with the way the economy is as it is I should consider myself doubly lucky to be able to pull this off. Even though, in reality, I'm probably pushing myself further into debt. But, back to my general conclusion...getting to do this is feeling much more like a step in the right direction. Because, that's what this trip was supposed to symbolize all along.
My newfound life of freedom and opportunities as a single college student shall NOT be overtaken by the horrible reality of life that seems to fog my vision of a worthwhile future. Life will always be difficult. Life will ALWAYS be difficult. But, people can always discover new and inventive ways to work around all of life's difficulties.
Above all, I want to make a difference in the world. Even if that difference only matters to me. That's the other important point I have reached. I used to be striving toward making my name remembered in the world, instead of truly concerning myself with making an impressionable difference. I am not yet sure how I will achieve this goal. But, at least now I have a traceable record of myself stating firmly what I want to accomplish in my life. And, I think, to anyone in my age bracket, a life goal is most certainly necessary.
I can sleep easier knowing that I now have my foot in a right direction. Here's to a good summer trip abroad. It's the only trip abroad I'll be making for a long while, more than likely. *cheers*
xoxo Heidi
I AM GOING TO LONDON AND DUBLIN. AND I'LL BE DAMNED IF I'M NOT WEARING MY EXCITED PANTS WHEN I GET THERE.
Ok, well, maybe not exactly those words...But, regardless, this trip is the opportunity of my lifetime. And, with the way the economy is as it is I should consider myself doubly lucky to be able to pull this off. Even though, in reality, I'm probably pushing myself further into debt. But, back to my general conclusion...getting to do this is feeling much more like a step in the right direction. Because, that's what this trip was supposed to symbolize all along.
My newfound life of freedom and opportunities as a single college student shall NOT be overtaken by the horrible reality of life that seems to fog my vision of a worthwhile future. Life will always be difficult. Life will ALWAYS be difficult. But, people can always discover new and inventive ways to work around all of life's difficulties.
Above all, I want to make a difference in the world. Even if that difference only matters to me. That's the other important point I have reached. I used to be striving toward making my name remembered in the world, instead of truly concerning myself with making an impressionable difference. I am not yet sure how I will achieve this goal. But, at least now I have a traceable record of myself stating firmly what I want to accomplish in my life. And, I think, to anyone in my age bracket, a life goal is most certainly necessary.
I can sleep easier knowing that I now have my foot in a right direction. Here's to a good summer trip abroad. It's the only trip abroad I'll be making for a long while, more than likely. *cheers*
xoxo Heidi