(no subject)
so i saw my friend josh today. my relationship with him is not complicated but is. he's my close friend's ex boyfriend. they were together for two year and she's only nearly 17now so i guess the fact that she thought she was going to marry him etc isn't that big of a thing. but to us, my friends, they were. they were The Couple. they had reached married with two kids status.
anyway, josh has this bass thing going on. he wants to be a musician, or own an establishment with live music or some crap like that. despite his evident intelligence and placement at selective highschool he quit his job a (sorry, i mean he quite school) and left to pursue his music stuff.
things changed really quickly. i'm kind of unsure as to why, but i figre josh had been really unhappy for a while. maybe it got too serious too quickly for him. after he quit school, he got a job at a cafe, to earn his keep or whatever and also to make some money for some music college thing he wanted to enrol in.
josh started becoming better friends with this person i know, whom is reknown in our circle of friends to be a sweet-at-the-time but hugely fickle person. actually, to be more honest, we kind of talk about her like she's some evil bitch monster. in the short term, she makes you feel really good and in the long term, pretty much shit.
so then i suppose was the first sign of him moving away from his girlf and his friends (us) to more hedonistic type relationships. fine.
in the next few months, he'd give me a call every now and then. i appreciated the gesture - only talking on the phone with him was hell as. it semed like anything to do with school was taken by him as one huge boring story or an tatmpt (attempt) at excluding him or ostracising him.
whenever he was around he looked like he'd better spend his time anywhere else and so eventually the calls became more and more infrequent.
and i saw him today. so i wasn't expecting us to resume from where we left off, but i guess josh lives in the real world, i.e. not highschool and i guess he feels like he can cut a bit of the bullshit. which translates to, not only was he indiffrent or resistant to talking, he was cold. and for some reason or the other, it kind of hurt me,
i do/did consider him my friend. maybe i didn't make enough of an effort, fair enough. but it kind of got me down. man thing change heller quickly.
anyway, josh has this bass thing going on. he wants to be a musician, or own an establishment with live music or some crap like that. despite his evident intelligence and placement at selective highschool he quit his job a (sorry, i mean he quite school) and left to pursue his music stuff.
things changed really quickly. i'm kind of unsure as to why, but i figre josh had been really unhappy for a while. maybe it got too serious too quickly for him. after he quit school, he got a job at a cafe, to earn his keep or whatever and also to make some money for some music college thing he wanted to enrol in.
josh started becoming better friends with this person i know, whom is reknown in our circle of friends to be a sweet-at-the-time but hugely fickle person. actually, to be more honest, we kind of talk about her like she's some evil bitch monster. in the short term, she makes you feel really good and in the long term, pretty much shit.
so then i suppose was the first sign of him moving away from his girlf and his friends (us) to more hedonistic type relationships. fine.
in the next few months, he'd give me a call every now and then. i appreciated the gesture - only talking on the phone with him was hell as. it semed like anything to do with school was taken by him as one huge boring story or an tatmpt (attempt) at excluding him or ostracising him.
whenever he was around he looked like he'd better spend his time anywhere else and so eventually the calls became more and more infrequent.
and i saw him today. so i wasn't expecting us to resume from where we left off, but i guess josh lives in the real world, i.e. not highschool and i guess he feels like he can cut a bit of the bullshit. which translates to, not only was he indiffrent or resistant to talking, he was cold. and for some reason or the other, it kind of hurt me,
i do/did consider him my friend. maybe i didn't make enough of an effort, fair enough. but it kind of got me down. man thing change heller quickly.