Never Stop, Oohhh He...
Click to view"You gotta lotta lotta nerve/
Coming here/
when I'm still with him/
And I can't have you,/
it isn't fair/
Born/
March of '86/
my birthday's comin'/
And if I had one wish/
Yeah, You'd be it,/
When you're 'round/
I lose myself/
Inside your mouth/..."
Drop dead killer snow leopard skirt + victorian 4" black heel boots + glittering beaded snake print scarf + panther studded earrings = guy slipping me a number in a subway car.
Gaga was right. She said that to be famous, you dress and act famous wherever you go. People see the high voltage overconfidence bias of "I am someone," will stop you on the street to ask if you are a star even if, "No one in the world knows (who I am), but they are going to want to know who I am... "
He was a modest and studently looking guy in his 20's, dark hair with beard.
He looked a little bit like Connor actually.
I think he noticed me checking him out because I liked his modest style.
He didn't look creepy or cocky or anything.
And what's funny is that I got asked out on the subway by him, which was really unexpected.
Getting asked out isn't the important part.
The important part is that I was fantasizing about him, but not in the way that you think.
I was imagining that he would attend my big dream live show when I get famous, remember me, and sit there dumb and starstruck that he didn't ask me out before he gets off the stop.
This basically means that I obsess about having power over people's minds with my personality and art, having people feel me with their hearts, and that I sit to daydream about the fame and money as the final product.
"Just a shot in the dark," he says as he slips me his number right before he gets off his stop. "Can we catch dinner or a drink sometime?"
After my wish came true, it actually left me feeling hopelessly guilty.
On a brighter note, I have three songs completed that need to get recorded.
I hope that I get this album finished, at the rate I'm going, in about 6 months.
I'm saving up for a HD camera to follow me around in my life.
You have no idea what I dream about, but once I get to where I want to be, I would do so much that the world would not be able to handle it.
One glimmer:
I want to change the world with what I have to show, which is currently myself, my dreams, my new passionate vision. Once I'm there, one of the many potentials to make a world a better place would be, eventually when I get a chance to have as many people listen to me about my ideas, on relationships. Because people deserve to be happy in their lives.
With interpersonal growth, more self-actualization, and honesty.