Hey jealousy!
I'm updating due to the fact I'm incredibly bored and have nothing to do. So I have too much time on my hands now, well kinda. I get off work at 6 and then I pretty much just come home for bonding time with the rents. Jeremy works a lot. I don't really go do anything to much anymore. And for the most part, it's not bothering me all that much. Well, at least during the week. The weekends i find stuff to do and whatnot. So yeah, that's my college life for you. But honestly, i think it's the best for me. If I lived in a dorm I'd have too many distractions from every perspective. And I just don't want that. I don't want to go to bed at 3 in the morning when I have class the next day, I don't want to party all the time, and I don't want to fail. So for me...this is the best way for me to be able to concentrate. And being away from my boyfriend for so long would probably have my eyes looking elsewhere for attention and I will not have that. period. The other day we were laying in his room and he rolled on top of me and kissed me....and for some reason it meant soooooo much to me and I thought "he's MY guy....I am the ONLY one in the WORLD that gets to lie here like this and spend so much time with such an awesome person. Of all the girls in the world...he's content with ME" And I would never want to give that up. I mean seriously, Why would I want to?
So the thing that is really bothering me is that my best friend is gone. She's off making new best friends and I feel so fucking replaced. I'm "out of the loop" and replaced by someone sooooo fucking similar to her. They always say you don't keep too many friends from high school. I personally, don't even want to think about that. I was supposed to be rooming with her.... but I fucked it all up. So instead,I get to hear about all the stuff that I should have been there doing...but its not me...it's someone else in my place. I'm so scared to meet this girl for some reason...I don't feel that I can compare to her. I guess jealousy is my punishment.
I HATE COMPOSITION CLASS! It's a bullshit class that is a complete waste of time. The teacher drives me up the wall. He's not teaching shit. He's not teaching us on how to improve our writing...he's not teaching us grammar or ANYTHING. Instead we are reading short essays and writing a brief reading log about it. Its not even in the form of a fucking essay. We've been discussing the BASIC format of a fucking essay since school started! I NEED TO LEARN SOMETHING BEFORE I BECOME RETARDED! Same with psych. I only really pick up random interesting facts bc our teacher is new and unorganized...
random interesting fact learned from psych. #1:
If you are born a frickin genius and are not brought up to keep up with your intelligence....as in you are learning way below your level and the resources to learn what your brain needs to learn are unavailable to you....you can become permanently mentally disabled....aka mentally retarded for life. That is what I feel is going to happen to me in comp class.
random interesting fact learned from psych. #2:
There was a study done and this is what they did... they had X amount of guys come in and they did some exercises or w/e and they took their shirts and put them in separate plastic bags then they took pictures of the guys... They then took these pictures to a group of girls who were then supposed to rate the guys on their looks from like 1-10 or w/e to see who was considered attractive and who wasn't. A couple days later they took the guys' shirts to the group of girls where the girls then had to sniff test the shirts to see how rank they were. And it was a proven fact that the more attractive people were better smelling. So in conclusion...the more attractive you are the least offensive your bodily smell is. lol. I found this interesting...dont ask.
I'm obsessed with Laguna Beach.... I <3 that show! SO much that I need to stop watching it because I compare me to jessica and jeremy to jason. And I need to stop lol. Jason is an asshole and jeremy is a sweetheart. I don't mean to compare them but since I compare myself to jessica it just kind of falls in line that jeremy gets compared to jason. Making me feel 100x better about my bf bc he acts nothing like jason.
I also like "Hogan Knows Best" It's kinda funny and I'm kinda glad that I'm not his daughter bc god...thats protective. He put a frickin tracking device on his car bc his daughter was going on a date and he wanted to know where they were at...at all times. It was kinda funny though. But yeah... his daughter wants to be a singer and he caught her eating a cookie and he yelled at her "if u expect to make it in the business then u have to work to keep your image bc that is the most important thing...." and she's like "dad it's only 1 cookie" and he's like "yeah yeah...1 leads to 2, 2 leads to 3, 3 leads to 4, then ya have a big back door." lol I thought it was funny.
Jeremy found a cat last night. lol. under my car. It was cute...I think it belonged to someone in my neighborhood i'm not sure. But he stopped by at like 11 bc he was test driving his car to make sure what he was fixing worked right and stopped by and he gets to my house and starts looking under my car and i'm standing inside like wtf is he doing...tying his shoe idk i couldnt see anything. Then he stands up and he's holding a cat...I'm like where the hell did u get that from lol? He's like it was under your car. So we sat outside on the ground for like a half an hour playing with it. lol. at like 11 at night. It was so cute for some reason... he kinda acted like a little kid in a candy store he was all like "what would happen if it became MY cat? like matt found his dogs and now there HIS dogs...well what if this was MY cat?" lol I was like idk but we both decided his dogs and cat would not like him. Then we were standing there talking and the cat meowed and ran into my yard after a bug and it made jeremy jump "holy shit i didnt know he was over there" i giggled. Then the cat started walking towards the road...came back. and jeremy was like..."he wants to go home...maybe I should walk it home" I was like umm ok since i don't know where it belongs. IDK it was just cuuuute!
It felt sooo incredibly good to get all of that out of my head. So I'm going to go to bed soon, and maybe...just maybe I will update more often. who knows. lol.
None of this was meant to be offensive. Goodnight to all!
<3 Amber
So the thing that is really bothering me is that my best friend is gone. She's off making new best friends and I feel so fucking replaced. I'm "out of the loop" and replaced by someone sooooo fucking similar to her. They always say you don't keep too many friends from high school. I personally, don't even want to think about that. I was supposed to be rooming with her.... but I fucked it all up. So instead,I get to hear about all the stuff that I should have been there doing...but its not me...it's someone else in my place. I'm so scared to meet this girl for some reason...I don't feel that I can compare to her. I guess jealousy is my punishment.
I HATE COMPOSITION CLASS! It's a bullshit class that is a complete waste of time. The teacher drives me up the wall. He's not teaching shit. He's not teaching us on how to improve our writing...he's not teaching us grammar or ANYTHING. Instead we are reading short essays and writing a brief reading log about it. Its not even in the form of a fucking essay. We've been discussing the BASIC format of a fucking essay since school started! I NEED TO LEARN SOMETHING BEFORE I BECOME RETARDED! Same with psych. I only really pick up random interesting facts bc our teacher is new and unorganized...
random interesting fact learned from psych. #1:
If you are born a frickin genius and are not brought up to keep up with your intelligence....as in you are learning way below your level and the resources to learn what your brain needs to learn are unavailable to you....you can become permanently mentally disabled....aka mentally retarded for life. That is what I feel is going to happen to me in comp class.
random interesting fact learned from psych. #2:
There was a study done and this is what they did... they had X amount of guys come in and they did some exercises or w/e and they took their shirts and put them in separate plastic bags then they took pictures of the guys... They then took these pictures to a group of girls who were then supposed to rate the guys on their looks from like 1-10 or w/e to see who was considered attractive and who wasn't. A couple days later they took the guys' shirts to the group of girls where the girls then had to sniff test the shirts to see how rank they were. And it was a proven fact that the more attractive people were better smelling. So in conclusion...the more attractive you are the least offensive your bodily smell is. lol. I found this interesting...dont ask.
I'm obsessed with Laguna Beach.... I <3 that show! SO much that I need to stop watching it because I compare me to jessica and jeremy to jason. And I need to stop lol. Jason is an asshole and jeremy is a sweetheart. I don't mean to compare them but since I compare myself to jessica it just kind of falls in line that jeremy gets compared to jason. Making me feel 100x better about my bf bc he acts nothing like jason.
I also like "Hogan Knows Best" It's kinda funny and I'm kinda glad that I'm not his daughter bc god...thats protective. He put a frickin tracking device on his car bc his daughter was going on a date and he wanted to know where they were at...at all times. It was kinda funny though. But yeah... his daughter wants to be a singer and he caught her eating a cookie and he yelled at her "if u expect to make it in the business then u have to work to keep your image bc that is the most important thing...." and she's like "dad it's only 1 cookie" and he's like "yeah yeah...1 leads to 2, 2 leads to 3, 3 leads to 4, then ya have a big back door." lol I thought it was funny.
Jeremy found a cat last night. lol. under my car. It was cute...I think it belonged to someone in my neighborhood i'm not sure. But he stopped by at like 11 bc he was test driving his car to make sure what he was fixing worked right and stopped by and he gets to my house and starts looking under my car and i'm standing inside like wtf is he doing...tying his shoe idk i couldnt see anything. Then he stands up and he's holding a cat...I'm like where the hell did u get that from lol? He's like it was under your car. So we sat outside on the ground for like a half an hour playing with it. lol. at like 11 at night. It was so cute for some reason... he kinda acted like a little kid in a candy store he was all like "what would happen if it became MY cat? like matt found his dogs and now there HIS dogs...well what if this was MY cat?" lol I was like idk but we both decided his dogs and cat would not like him. Then we were standing there talking and the cat meowed and ran into my yard after a bug and it made jeremy jump "holy shit i didnt know he was over there" i giggled. Then the cat started walking towards the road...came back. and jeremy was like..."he wants to go home...maybe I should walk it home" I was like umm ok since i don't know where it belongs. IDK it was just cuuuute!
It felt sooo incredibly good to get all of that out of my head. So I'm going to go to bed soon, and maybe...just maybe I will update more often. who knows. lol.
None of this was meant to be offensive. Goodnight to all!
<3 Amber